1 00:00:33,290 --> 00:00:39,850 I came to a place where the Lord was 2 00:00:39,850 --> 00:00:46,270 laid, and the blessed by His 3 00:00:46,270 --> 00:00:47,290 truth. 4 00:00:48,550 --> 00:00:54,850 When in the low voice I heard 5 00:00:54,850 --> 00:01:00,930 something say, How sweetly I sleep 6 00:01:00,930 --> 00:01:02,790 here alone. 7 00:01:05,610 --> 00:01:12,230 The tempest may howl and the loud thunder 8 00:01:12,230 --> 00:01:19,010 roar, and gathering storm may arise. 9 00:01:20,850 --> 00:01:27,270 But calm is my spirit and rest 10 00:01:27,270 --> 00:01:29,310 is my soul. 11 00:01:29,950 --> 00:01:35,290 The tears are all wiped from my eyes. 12 00:01:38,670 --> 00:01:40,610 I have no idea where he is. 13 00:01:41,730 --> 00:01:42,730 I'm sorry. 14 00:01:42,750 --> 00:01:44,250 Harry thought you might... Harry thought? 15 00:01:44,930 --> 00:01:49,830 Harry doesn't think. Harry doesn't know what he's talking about. Harry doesn't 16 00:01:49,830 --> 00:01:51,730 even know my name. It isn't Danielle. 17 00:01:51,990 --> 00:01:57,470 That's what I say. What I say is, Harry does not know my name. 18 00:01:57,830 --> 00:02:01,530 I'm sorry. Why does he not know my name? Why is it that Harry doesn't know my 19 00:02:01,530 --> 00:02:04,150 name, huh? I don't know. You'd have to ask Harry that. 20 00:02:09,229 --> 00:02:16,090 The call of my master compelled me from 21 00:02:16,090 --> 00:02:22,370 home. No kindred or relative nigh. 22 00:02:23,850 --> 00:02:30,630 I met the contagion and sank 23 00:02:30,630 --> 00:02:32,330 in the tomb. 24 00:02:32,590 --> 00:02:38,450 My soul flew to mansion on high. 25 00:03:33,800 --> 00:03:35,040 What is he doing anyway? 26 00:03:35,300 --> 00:03:36,300 Harry. 27 00:03:37,500 --> 00:03:44,420 You look very much like your father when he was your 28 00:03:44,420 --> 00:03:47,860 age. Do you know that? Yeah, I do. People tend to say that. 29 00:03:48,180 --> 00:03:51,880 Is that what people say to you? You look very much like your father? Yeah, 30 00:03:51,900 --> 00:03:54,200 that's what people tend to say on a very regular basis. 31 00:03:54,740 --> 00:03:55,619 You do? 32 00:03:55,620 --> 00:03:57,320 You look very much like your father. 33 00:04:00,300 --> 00:04:01,300 He's hanging around. 34 00:04:02,030 --> 00:04:04,910 Now you confuse me. I thought he was dead. 35 00:04:05,710 --> 00:04:10,950 I thought he died years ago. Nine years ago, yeah. Harry, he's hanging around, 36 00:04:11,170 --> 00:04:11,689 you know? 37 00:04:11,690 --> 00:04:13,070 No, I don't know. 38 00:04:14,570 --> 00:04:19,769 All I know is that he keeps forgetting my fucking name. I mean, I was married 39 00:04:19,769 --> 00:04:20,769 the guy. 40 00:04:20,810 --> 00:04:24,230 True. It was 20 years ago, but I was still married to the guy. 41 00:04:24,470 --> 00:04:29,310 You know, the least he can do is remember my name. But does he remember 42 00:04:29,790 --> 00:04:30,850 The hell he does. 43 00:04:31,630 --> 00:04:32,910 He calls me Danielle. 44 00:04:33,470 --> 00:04:38,650 Every fucking Christmas, he sends me a fucking Christmas card. Dear Danielle, 45 00:04:38,650 --> 00:04:40,410 writes me every year. 46 00:04:40,770 --> 00:04:45,490 I wish you a very merry Christmas, and I hope you will get better, too. 47 00:04:46,070 --> 00:04:47,550 What does he think I have? 48 00:04:47,890 --> 00:04:50,430 Flu? I will not get better. 49 00:04:51,150 --> 00:04:56,550 I'm ill. I will die. And then I tell you, he better not, he better not put 50 00:04:56,550 --> 00:05:00,410 Danielle on my gravestone, or I will come back to haunt him. Haunt. 51 00:05:00,880 --> 00:05:06,280 You just note me. I will come back and hunt him down and shoot him if he does 52 00:05:06,280 --> 00:05:12,200 that. I will not be caught, Daniela. Fucking great, though. Okay, 20 years. 53 00:05:12,920 --> 00:05:15,560 Harry must have been 16 then. Maybe, maybe. 54 00:05:16,920 --> 00:05:21,000 It was 12 years ago. It feels like 20, I can tell you. 55 00:05:42,990 --> 00:05:45,410 He's into music now. Oh, is he now? 56 00:05:46,010 --> 00:05:47,470 He's into music now. 57 00:05:47,770 --> 00:05:51,930 Yeah, he's mixing some track, you know, laying them down. 58 00:05:52,530 --> 00:05:54,110 He's laying them down. 59 00:05:56,850 --> 00:05:58,710 He's not even a musician. 60 00:05:59,130 --> 00:06:01,830 No, I know, but you know. 61 00:06:03,130 --> 00:06:05,270 You should ask Werner. Werner? 62 00:06:05,890 --> 00:06:08,290 Yes, you should ask him. Who's Werner? 63 00:06:08,950 --> 00:06:10,450 Werner knows everybody. 64 00:06:11,210 --> 00:06:12,590 He will know where George is. 65 00:06:12,790 --> 00:06:15,010 He will? Oh, I'm not guaranteeing you anything. 66 00:06:15,290 --> 00:06:17,910 But I'm telling you who knows people around here and who doesn't. 67 00:06:18,350 --> 00:06:20,750 I don't know people around here. 68 00:06:21,290 --> 00:06:22,290 I'm ill. 69 00:06:22,450 --> 00:06:23,450 I'm going to die. 70 00:06:23,630 --> 00:06:27,510 And I don't get out anymore. But you are not two people I don't know. They know 71 00:06:27,510 --> 00:06:32,550 people. Once you get to the people who know people, you get to somebody who 72 00:06:32,550 --> 00:06:37,830 know where this George friend is of your father's. And once you know that, you 73 00:06:37,830 --> 00:06:38,789 will know more. 74 00:06:38,790 --> 00:06:39,790 Maybe. 75 00:06:39,890 --> 00:06:40,890 Maybe. 76 00:06:41,420 --> 00:06:43,000 Maybe, maybe, not maybe. 77 00:06:43,220 --> 00:06:45,200 What are you? A sausage? 78 00:06:45,660 --> 00:06:51,000 You have to try things in life. What else are you living for? Give him a 79 00:06:51,400 --> 00:06:55,120 And tell him I told you to call him. 80 00:06:56,240 --> 00:07:00,680 If he hangs up on you, you just have to ring him again. 81 00:07:01,020 --> 00:07:03,220 He does that sometimes. Make a joke with people. 82 00:07:03,880 --> 00:07:05,880 It doesn't mean it's bad. 83 00:07:07,200 --> 00:07:09,000 You wouldn't want to give him a call now? 84 00:07:10,280 --> 00:07:11,880 I don't know. Introduce us, would you? 85 00:07:14,800 --> 00:07:21,740 At 11 o 'clock. Werner, it's not us at 11 o 'clock. Werner is a man who knows 86 00:07:21,740 --> 00:07:23,760 people. He gets them out. 87 00:07:25,320 --> 00:07:29,140 I have an appointment now with my doctor. 88 00:07:29,800 --> 00:07:33,700 Bastard. He doesn't think that I'm going to die. 89 00:07:34,480 --> 00:07:38,940 He says I have 10, 20, 30 years in me yet. 90 00:07:39,480 --> 00:07:42,060 He doesn't know a thing. What is he? 91 00:07:42,300 --> 00:07:43,300 A quack. 92 00:07:44,140 --> 00:07:45,160 That's what he is. 93 00:07:46,140 --> 00:07:50,960 But you, go and have some lunch, and then you wait half an hour, and then you 94 00:07:50,960 --> 00:07:51,879 call Ben. 95 00:07:51,880 --> 00:07:52,880 At half past two. 96 00:07:53,240 --> 00:07:57,320 Just tell him I told you to call him. He's a friend of mine, too. You know. 97 00:07:57,520 --> 00:07:58,520 Yeah. Okay. 98 00:07:59,840 --> 00:08:02,800 Um... Yeah. 99 00:08:04,360 --> 00:08:05,660 What exactly is your name? 100 00:08:05,880 --> 00:08:07,040 Oh, for fuck's sake. 101 00:08:17,770 --> 00:08:19,430 You will have a long life. 102 00:08:21,090 --> 00:08:23,130 Your lifeline is long and already dear. 103 00:08:24,150 --> 00:08:25,029 Thank you. 104 00:08:25,030 --> 00:08:27,190 Don't take it as a compliment. It's not that. 105 00:08:27,730 --> 00:08:29,810 And nobody says it's going to be happy. 106 00:09:13,960 --> 00:09:14,960 Is that you? 107 00:09:15,720 --> 00:09:17,940 Oh. Um, Harry. 108 00:09:18,780 --> 00:09:22,580 Um... Long time. 109 00:09:24,940 --> 00:09:27,480 Harry, what the hell is going on? 110 00:09:27,840 --> 00:09:28,980 Please call me. 111 00:09:29,320 --> 00:09:30,320 Call me. 112 00:09:31,020 --> 00:09:33,760 You know my number. I know you do. 113 00:09:35,720 --> 00:09:37,160 And it's not Danielle. 114 00:09:55,850 --> 00:09:56,850 I think it's important. 115 00:09:57,830 --> 00:09:58,830 I agree. 116 00:10:23,630 --> 00:10:24,910 I didn't know we had ants. 117 00:10:26,090 --> 00:10:27,090 One ant. 118 00:10:29,090 --> 00:10:31,150 When you have one, you normally have several. 119 00:10:31,390 --> 00:10:33,230 Who says this is a normal ant, Conrad? 120 00:10:34,290 --> 00:10:36,450 Maybe it isn't. Could be a special ant. 121 00:10:37,050 --> 00:10:39,530 What makes you think this ant is special, Theo? 122 00:10:40,630 --> 00:10:42,630 I don't know. There's something about it, Conrad. 123 00:10:43,650 --> 00:10:45,790 And the moment seems significant. 124 00:10:47,750 --> 00:10:49,750 Consequential, even? Maybe momentous. 125 00:10:50,890 --> 00:10:54,750 All moments are momentous, Theo, aren't they? Some more so than others. 126 00:10:58,410 --> 00:10:59,830 Maybe we should adopt it. 127 00:11:00,870 --> 00:11:01,870 The end. 128 00:11:03,570 --> 00:11:06,470 We could adopt it, but then it would no longer be free. 129 00:11:07,010 --> 00:11:08,730 Maybe it doesn't want to be free. 130 00:11:09,230 --> 00:11:10,230 Doesn't it? 131 00:11:11,470 --> 00:11:14,550 Maybe it just wants to be loved. 132 00:11:16,510 --> 00:11:18,010 We could adopt it and love it. 133 00:11:22,790 --> 00:11:23,790 Mum. 134 00:11:24,650 --> 00:11:25,850 Oh, Harry. 135 00:11:26,530 --> 00:11:27,530 Hey, Harry. 136 00:11:29,160 --> 00:11:30,760 I know, seven times. 137 00:11:39,620 --> 00:11:40,660 Oh. 138 00:11:43,180 --> 00:11:44,220 Oh, 139 00:11:48,340 --> 00:11:50,520 fucking bastard shit. 140 00:11:52,340 --> 00:11:55,380 Fucking bastard shit. Cunt. 141 00:11:55,760 --> 00:11:57,340 Shit. Yeah. 142 00:11:57,800 --> 00:11:58,800 Harry, I'll be there. 143 00:12:00,100 --> 00:12:01,100 Yeah. 144 00:12:03,460 --> 00:12:04,980 That was your mum's phone, but it was Harry. 145 00:12:11,320 --> 00:12:12,320 Wasn't your mum. 146 00:12:54,800 --> 00:13:01,620 This heart, this heart, this heart, this heart 147 00:13:01,620 --> 00:13:08,520 of mine doesn't always 148 00:13:08,520 --> 00:13:10,720 shine. 149 00:13:11,580 --> 00:13:18,380 Them words, them words, all them words, 150 00:13:18,560 --> 00:13:21,300 them words from you. 151 00:13:48,490 --> 00:13:54,190 See I'm, yeah I'm, you know 152 00:13:54,190 --> 00:13:58,910 I'm, I'm on a wire of my own. 153 00:14:02,350 --> 00:14:04,990 There's no net below. 154 00:14:07,770 --> 00:14:14,290 Great stakes of each break, each break, 155 00:14:14,510 --> 00:14:15,690 one day. 156 00:15:23,500 --> 00:15:27,180 I'll dance in, let them in. 157 00:15:27,840 --> 00:15:33,580 Love is a gift to the heart that holds it. 158 00:15:40,700 --> 00:15:42,260 You can keep all of that if you want. 159 00:15:42,640 --> 00:15:43,800 This? Yeah. 160 00:15:46,340 --> 00:15:47,380 Have you got a projector? 161 00:15:47,900 --> 00:15:49,060 For that? No. 162 00:15:49,900 --> 00:15:50,920 Mum didn't have one. 163 00:15:51,220 --> 00:15:52,220 I don't think so. 164 00:15:52,430 --> 00:15:53,430 Then why's she got this? 165 00:15:53,710 --> 00:15:54,710 She just did. 166 00:15:54,790 --> 00:15:56,990 You know, she just had stuff. We all do. 167 00:15:57,750 --> 00:15:58,930 We need to get hold of the projector. 168 00:15:59,670 --> 00:16:01,090 Well, the cinema's got one. Has it? 169 00:16:01,710 --> 00:16:02,710 My brother's got one. 170 00:16:03,030 --> 00:16:04,750 Ivor? He's got a cinema? 171 00:16:05,170 --> 00:16:07,290 No. He's got stuff too, you know? 172 00:16:08,130 --> 00:16:09,129 Projectors and stuff. 173 00:16:09,130 --> 00:16:10,230 He's a stuff kind of person. 174 00:16:26,480 --> 00:16:29,580 Hello there baby, how do you do? 175 00:16:30,020 --> 00:16:36,000 I just want to call you up and have a word with you But your voice don't sound 176 00:16:36,000 --> 00:16:42,900 as sweet as before Maybe it's because you don't love me no more But now I 177 00:16:42,900 --> 00:16:49,620 feel foolish, now I feel blue Feel like a child trying to get along with you 178 00:16:58,190 --> 00:16:59,590 Hello there, baby. 179 00:16:59,830 --> 00:17:01,290 How do you do? 180 00:17:01,830 --> 00:17:05,430 I just wanted to call you up and have a word with you. 181 00:17:05,950 --> 00:17:09,310 But your voice don't sound as sweet as I recall. 182 00:17:09,970 --> 00:17:13,430 Maybe it's because you never loved me at all. 183 00:17:13,690 --> 00:17:15,550 But now I feel foolish. 184 00:17:15,970 --> 00:17:17,490 Now I feel down. 185 00:17:17,810 --> 00:17:21,609 Feel like a lonesome, dumb and love -struck clown. 186 00:17:22,109 --> 00:17:23,109 Well, that was quite something. 187 00:17:24,050 --> 00:17:27,410 Cheers, Ives. That was well worth it. Can you run it again? What's up now? 188 00:17:27,770 --> 00:17:28,770 Want to check something? 189 00:17:29,310 --> 00:17:30,310 Can I borrow your phone? 190 00:17:34,510 --> 00:17:36,310 You look remarkably like your dad. 191 00:17:37,450 --> 00:17:38,510 He's older than me. 192 00:17:38,950 --> 00:17:40,690 Not much. He's your age. 193 00:17:41,350 --> 00:17:42,690 Much older than I am. 194 00:17:43,110 --> 00:17:44,690 I'm marginally older than you. 195 00:17:44,930 --> 00:17:48,230 And much, much more than that. Hello there, baby. 196 00:17:48,430 --> 00:17:49,910 I'm thinking of you. 197 00:17:50,710 --> 00:17:54,010 Looking out my window here at the full moon. 198 00:17:54,780 --> 00:17:58,080 It drives me crazy. I'm halfway up the wall. 199 00:17:58,540 --> 00:18:02,020 Just wanted to spend this night with you, but that's all. 200 00:18:02,320 --> 00:18:06,080 But now I feel foolish. Now I feel down. 201 00:18:06,380 --> 00:18:09,900 Feel like a king lost without a crown. 202 00:18:10,240 --> 00:18:17,140 Now I feel foolish. Now I feel down. Feel like a lonesome, dumb and love 203 00:18:17,140 --> 00:18:18,140 -struck clown. 204 00:18:18,490 --> 00:18:21,770 Now I feel foolish. Now I feel blue. 205 00:18:22,170 --> 00:18:25,510 Feel like a child, child in love. Stop it. 206 00:18:28,070 --> 00:18:29,070 What's interesting? 207 00:18:30,050 --> 00:18:31,050 This. 208 00:18:34,390 --> 00:18:35,390 Ouch. 209 00:18:38,890 --> 00:18:40,010 Where's my mother? 210 00:18:44,850 --> 00:18:46,950 28. At the most. The loo. 211 00:18:47,850 --> 00:18:50,170 I'm interested in the least. How old is he at least? 212 00:18:50,550 --> 00:18:52,930 20? You said he looked older than me. 213 00:18:55,510 --> 00:18:56,730 24. 5. 214 00:18:57,250 --> 00:18:59,690 So between 24 and 28. 215 00:19:02,190 --> 00:19:04,690 23 and 27. 216 00:19:07,650 --> 00:19:08,650 Thereabouts. 217 00:19:11,430 --> 00:19:12,430 Broadly. 218 00:19:13,990 --> 00:19:15,110 Approximately. I'm already here. 219 00:19:15,330 --> 00:19:16,950 Here? In this world. 220 00:19:18,360 --> 00:19:19,360 I'm already here. 221 00:19:21,480 --> 00:19:22,540 My mom's here. 222 00:19:23,320 --> 00:19:24,320 My dad's here. 223 00:19:26,080 --> 00:19:30,000 And my dad has the hots for somebody else. 224 00:19:36,140 --> 00:19:37,140 No idea. 225 00:19:41,060 --> 00:19:42,160 No idea, I wouldn't know. 226 00:19:42,800 --> 00:19:44,200 Yes, you were. You're right here. 227 00:19:45,320 --> 00:19:46,320 Yeah. 228 00:19:46,750 --> 00:19:50,110 I mean, I was there, but I wasn't really there. 229 00:19:53,610 --> 00:19:54,610 No. 230 00:19:55,170 --> 00:19:57,090 I must have been, what, your age, something like that. 231 00:19:57,290 --> 00:20:00,050 That's why I was there. I just wasn't in the picture. 232 00:20:03,370 --> 00:20:04,710 You were his dad's mate. 233 00:20:05,290 --> 00:20:06,290 Mm -hmm. 234 00:20:06,650 --> 00:20:08,570 Yeah, but I don't even know whose party this is. 235 00:20:09,270 --> 00:20:12,210 Unless it was Eva's legendary first year. 236 00:20:12,950 --> 00:20:13,950 Who's Eva? 237 00:20:14,080 --> 00:20:16,500 Eva was my ex -wife's lover at the time. 238 00:20:17,020 --> 00:20:22,980 She threw this almighty basket where anything went and pretty much everything 239 00:20:22,980 --> 00:20:23,799 went wrong. 240 00:20:23,800 --> 00:20:26,900 I think we even had someone in the river at one point. But that could be her 241 00:20:26,900 --> 00:20:27,980 behind the camera for all I know. 242 00:20:28,200 --> 00:20:33,220 Eva. But you would have been, I mean, a few months, a year old, two maximum. 243 00:20:33,560 --> 00:20:36,540 So if it was Eva, she would know who she'd invited? 244 00:20:37,020 --> 00:20:39,980 I wouldn't bank on it. Like I say, we're talking 17, 18 years ago. 245 00:20:40,220 --> 00:20:41,220 You were 20? 246 00:20:41,520 --> 00:20:43,460 Almost. And Dad was your best mate? 247 00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:47,580 Yeah, you could say he's my best friend. And he was, what, 24, 248 00:20:48,500 --> 00:20:51,200 25 when he had me, so... No shit, Sherlock. 249 00:20:53,160 --> 00:20:54,160 Cheers, Harry. 250 00:20:55,400 --> 00:20:57,040 You're to me what Dad was to Harry. 251 00:20:57,440 --> 00:20:58,700 I'm not going to let you get my girl. 252 00:20:58,900 --> 00:21:00,100 You don't have a girl, Brent. 253 00:21:00,320 --> 00:21:02,960 I'm still not going to let you get her. You don't even know if you want one. 254 00:21:05,320 --> 00:21:09,420 Either he knows who it was but doesn't want you to know, or he doesn't know who 255 00:21:09,420 --> 00:21:10,860 it was and doesn't want you to know either. 256 00:21:12,120 --> 00:21:14,190 Or... He doesn't know and doesn't care who it was. 257 00:21:14,430 --> 00:21:18,290 Or he's just blocking it out like a bad memory. Why would he be blocking it out 258 00:21:18,290 --> 00:21:19,289 like a bad memory? 259 00:21:19,290 --> 00:21:20,209 You're his what? 260 00:21:20,210 --> 00:21:21,350 Stepson? They weren't married. 261 00:21:21,550 --> 00:21:22,309 Why not? 262 00:21:22,310 --> 00:21:24,390 How do I know? Maybe he didn't want to. Why not? 263 00:21:24,610 --> 00:21:27,790 I don't know. He's been married before. Maybe he's been traumatized. Unfinished 264 00:21:27,790 --> 00:21:28,790 business. What? 265 00:21:28,830 --> 00:21:33,090 Well, he wanted to marry your mom, but he couldn't. Conrad, he's just my mom's 266 00:21:33,090 --> 00:21:33,909 man. That's all. 267 00:21:33,910 --> 00:21:35,190 Okay. Well, think it through. 268 00:21:35,870 --> 00:21:40,030 You're a bunch of friends in your mid to late 20s. Early 20s in Harry's case. 269 00:21:40,250 --> 00:21:41,890 Early 20s in Harry's case. 270 00:21:42,360 --> 00:21:46,560 You're married to this woman and she has or has had a lover who now celebrates 271 00:21:46,560 --> 00:21:48,740 her 30th birthday. I don't think they were married. 272 00:21:48,980 --> 00:21:52,180 Well, maybe not. Maybe that's where they met. Maybe that's where they met. 273 00:21:52,580 --> 00:21:56,620 Harry and his ex -wife who then had a lover. Who now celebrates her 30th 274 00:21:56,620 --> 00:21:57,620 birthday. 275 00:21:57,800 --> 00:21:59,440 So she's older than everyone else. 276 00:21:59,680 --> 00:22:02,520 She's a little older than everybody else. She's a lot older than Harry. 277 00:22:02,740 --> 00:22:05,280 You're obsessed with age all of a sudden. What's got into you? 278 00:22:05,580 --> 00:22:06,580 I'm hitting 20. 279 00:22:07,680 --> 00:22:11,440 So your best mate is there with his wife who's recently had a baby. 280 00:22:11,770 --> 00:22:16,110 Whatever things honky -tonk, except, except your best mate is getting off 281 00:22:16,110 --> 00:22:19,670 somebody else, in full view of everybody and on camera. 282 00:22:20,370 --> 00:22:23,150 Your best mate's wife does not see the funny side of it. 283 00:22:23,690 --> 00:22:27,950 Ten years pass, and your best mate, the man in the middle, dies. 284 00:22:29,750 --> 00:22:34,050 This party, it must have been the early 90s. 285 00:22:34,390 --> 00:22:36,970 I'm already here. That makes a hell of a difference. 286 00:22:37,250 --> 00:22:38,029 It does? 287 00:22:38,030 --> 00:22:39,030 Not really. 288 00:22:39,570 --> 00:22:41,590 The only thing what matters is your best mate died. 289 00:22:41,810 --> 00:22:45,530 And after a while, you and your best mate's wife, who is now a widow, get it 290 00:22:45,530 --> 00:22:46,610 together. But you don't get married. 291 00:22:46,830 --> 00:22:49,430 For reasons we've already established, you don't get married. 292 00:22:49,650 --> 00:22:51,210 We haven't established why they didn't get married. 293 00:22:51,530 --> 00:22:55,390 Can we focus on one thing at a time here? You brought it up. Oh, yeah. And 294 00:22:55,390 --> 00:22:56,029 letting it go. 295 00:22:56,030 --> 00:22:57,050 See how I'm letting it go? 296 00:22:57,250 --> 00:22:58,250 There it goes. 297 00:22:58,350 --> 00:22:59,810 Gone. For the time being. 298 00:23:00,010 --> 00:23:03,790 For the... I could jump off this roof here, but it would be deeply unsubtle. 299 00:23:03,790 --> 00:23:06,530 ahead. I'm with you. No, no, no. We're not going to go. With the story. 300 00:23:06,990 --> 00:23:07,990 With the story. 301 00:23:08,250 --> 00:23:10,870 You come along. I come along. Said best mate's son. 302 00:23:11,170 --> 00:23:13,190 Baby that back then had recently been born. 303 00:23:13,530 --> 00:23:15,970 Who now wants to find out who the other woman was. 304 00:23:16,230 --> 00:23:17,230 I don't see the problem. 305 00:23:17,610 --> 00:23:20,650 Why would he need to block that out? Because. Like a bad memory. 306 00:23:21,050 --> 00:23:22,110 Because they're embarrassed. 307 00:23:22,310 --> 00:23:23,470 She can't have been that ugly. 308 00:23:23,710 --> 00:23:24,970 Who can't have been that ugly? 309 00:23:25,170 --> 00:23:27,370 The woman behind the camera. How do you know it was a woman? 310 00:23:29,630 --> 00:23:30,489 I don't. 311 00:23:30,490 --> 00:23:32,190 It could have been an alien. 312 00:23:33,290 --> 00:23:34,290 Yeah, I suppose. 313 00:23:34,570 --> 00:23:36,410 Not likely, but I suppose it could. 314 00:23:36,910 --> 00:23:39,350 That would have been kind of cool, wouldn't it? If it had been an alien. 315 00:23:39,610 --> 00:23:40,610 Yeah. 316 00:23:41,990 --> 00:23:44,970 Except... Except... Your mum didn't have a projector. 317 00:23:45,410 --> 00:23:46,990 So she may not have seen the film. 318 00:23:47,490 --> 00:23:52,210 But... But she saw who shot it. Yeah. And she saw Dad. He did. So she knew. 319 00:23:53,510 --> 00:23:56,570 And if she knows... Harry knows. 320 00:23:58,030 --> 00:24:00,650 Blackjack. But it's a long time ago, Theo. 321 00:24:00,930 --> 00:24:03,510 And they're both gone now, right? The number three isn't gone. 322 00:24:03,790 --> 00:24:05,390 I don't know. You do know. 323 00:24:06,410 --> 00:24:07,490 You know who it is? 324 00:24:09,390 --> 00:24:14,470 Look, when your dad... Look, when Jamie died, your mom made me promise that I'd 325 00:24:14,470 --> 00:24:15,470 find the film for her. 326 00:24:15,630 --> 00:24:16,630 And the pictures. 327 00:24:17,090 --> 00:24:18,090 There are pictures? 328 00:24:18,190 --> 00:24:19,190 There were. 329 00:24:19,470 --> 00:24:22,890 And I did. I found them and I gave them to her. But your mom threw them away. 330 00:24:23,110 --> 00:24:24,570 She didn't throw away the real? No. 331 00:24:25,130 --> 00:24:26,130 Why? 332 00:24:27,230 --> 00:24:29,330 Because Jamie was really happy in it. 333 00:24:29,590 --> 00:24:33,170 And it's the only time we ever really saw him that happy. 334 00:24:33,390 --> 00:24:34,389 So you watched it? 335 00:24:34,390 --> 00:24:35,390 We watched it. 336 00:24:35,580 --> 00:24:36,580 What? 337 00:24:37,820 --> 00:24:39,840 And you can't tell me you made my dad happy. 338 00:24:40,460 --> 00:24:43,740 Your mom made me promise I wouldn't. 339 00:24:47,860 --> 00:24:48,860 Fucking hell. 340 00:25:29,000 --> 00:25:30,000 Mum kept the reel. 341 00:25:31,640 --> 00:25:33,100 So did you. You kept the reel. 342 00:25:34,100 --> 00:25:35,100 All this time. 343 00:25:36,440 --> 00:25:37,440 Mum dies. 344 00:25:38,180 --> 00:25:41,100 We knew she was going to die. You'd have had ample time to start sorting through 345 00:25:41,100 --> 00:25:42,100 stuff, but you kept it. 346 00:25:42,620 --> 00:25:45,300 You asked me, you even said to me, do you want to come over and pick up any of 347 00:25:45,300 --> 00:25:46,300 your mum's stuff? 348 00:25:46,400 --> 00:25:48,540 And right there among my mum's stuff is this reel. 349 00:25:49,740 --> 00:25:50,740 You knew it was there. 350 00:25:51,420 --> 00:25:53,720 You put it there. Or at any rate, you didn't take it away. 351 00:25:54,810 --> 00:25:57,910 You knew what was on it. You knew if I saw it, I would want to watch it. And if 352 00:25:57,910 --> 00:26:00,870 I watched it, I would see my dad happy. And if I saw my dad happy, I would want 353 00:26:00,870 --> 00:26:01,870 to know why. 354 00:26:02,130 --> 00:26:04,830 But you promised, ages ago, my mum not to tell. 355 00:26:06,490 --> 00:26:07,490 Where is this Eva? 356 00:26:08,150 --> 00:26:09,370 I honestly don't know. 357 00:26:10,010 --> 00:26:13,510 Nothing? No number, no email address? You're not friends on Facebook? 358 00:26:13,810 --> 00:26:17,330 All I have is an old landline number from Budapest. Can I have it? 359 00:26:18,010 --> 00:26:20,430 Well, she lived 20 years ago. Can I have it? 360 00:26:22,770 --> 00:26:23,770 Okay. 361 00:26:32,889 --> 00:26:34,090 There's something else, isn't there? 362 00:26:35,750 --> 00:26:36,850 There's something else to this. 363 00:26:38,410 --> 00:26:39,410 I know you. 364 00:26:40,530 --> 00:26:45,310 You and your cryptic crosswords and tangential problems and 20 -year -old 365 00:26:45,310 --> 00:26:46,590 numbers you remember by heart. 366 00:26:48,530 --> 00:26:49,710 I'll work it out, Harry. 367 00:26:51,350 --> 00:26:52,350 Don't you worry. 368 00:26:53,880 --> 00:26:54,880 I'll work it out. 369 00:27:18,920 --> 00:27:19,920 No answer. 370 00:27:20,040 --> 00:27:21,040 Don't. 371 00:27:21,380 --> 00:27:22,460 She may be hard of hearing. 372 00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:25,180 Living in a big house. 373 00:27:25,920 --> 00:27:27,260 A tall house. 374 00:27:28,240 --> 00:27:29,800 She doesn't hear the phone at first. 375 00:27:30,300 --> 00:27:31,300 Maybe. 376 00:27:31,540 --> 00:27:32,540 Then she does. 377 00:27:33,360 --> 00:27:37,640 She's old and frail. She's 50. She's old. 378 00:27:38,440 --> 00:27:40,140 She makes her way down the stairs. 379 00:27:40,500 --> 00:27:45,480 She gets there, to the bottom of the stairs, where her old -style phone hangs 380 00:27:45,480 --> 00:27:48,540 the wall, with a dial like that of a Bette Davis film. 381 00:27:50,080 --> 00:27:52,020 She reaches for the receiver. 382 00:27:52,570 --> 00:27:53,570 Hello? 383 00:27:54,750 --> 00:27:55,870 Ah, hello. 384 00:27:56,710 --> 00:27:57,710 I'm Theo. 385 00:27:58,490 --> 00:27:59,490 Theo. 386 00:28:00,830 --> 00:28:04,090 I'm Harry's stepson, sort of. 387 00:28:05,050 --> 00:28:07,430 Well, I'm Harry's partner's son. 388 00:28:10,390 --> 00:28:14,410 I'm looking... I was wondering whether you could help me find somebody. 389 00:28:17,170 --> 00:28:21,530 I'm trying to find someone who was at your birthday party about 20 years ago. 390 00:28:25,710 --> 00:28:26,710 Who? What? 391 00:28:27,330 --> 00:28:29,550 Sorry. George Waters. 392 00:28:30,230 --> 00:28:32,410 Ask George Waters. 393 00:28:32,690 --> 00:28:35,910 He made all the best parties there. 394 00:28:36,210 --> 00:28:37,470 He made mine. 395 00:28:37,770 --> 00:28:44,270 And he never forgets a person. If he invites you, if he likes you enough to 396 00:28:44,270 --> 00:28:50,410 invite you to a party, then he remembers you. He has memory like an elephant. 397 00:28:50,790 --> 00:28:53,010 And do you know where I can find this George person? 398 00:28:56,400 --> 00:28:57,400 Ask Danielle. 399 00:28:58,520 --> 00:29:00,240 And who is Danielle? 400 00:29:02,060 --> 00:29:06,300 Danielle is the ex -wife of Harry. 401 00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:08,200 Oh. 402 00:29:09,300 --> 00:29:12,700 And do you happen to know where I can find Danielle? 403 00:29:13,220 --> 00:29:16,460 I don't anymore. 404 00:29:18,780 --> 00:29:20,360 But Harry... 405 00:29:37,629 --> 00:29:38,990 George. He's famous. 406 00:29:39,510 --> 00:29:40,690 He's written a book. 407 00:29:41,170 --> 00:29:43,330 You've never heard of him? You've never heard of him. 408 00:29:43,570 --> 00:29:45,350 Well, he wasn't a friend of my dad's, was he? 409 00:29:46,670 --> 00:29:47,930 Critical acclaim. 410 00:29:49,590 --> 00:29:51,290 Translated into major languages. 411 00:29:52,090 --> 00:29:53,390 Near cult status. 412 00:29:54,570 --> 00:29:55,770 What does that mean, anyway? 413 00:29:56,290 --> 00:29:57,490 Near cult status. 414 00:29:58,030 --> 00:30:00,810 Does it mean people nearly queued up overnight to go to the book signing, but 415 00:30:00,810 --> 00:30:01,810 couldn't be quite positive? 416 00:30:02,090 --> 00:30:03,250 Well, they queued up overnight. 417 00:30:03,900 --> 00:30:06,220 Slept in their sleeping bags, had a line and missed the whole thing. 418 00:30:07,120 --> 00:30:10,400 Or they got to the top of the queue and couldn't afford the book, so they just 419 00:30:10,400 --> 00:30:16,820 left. Or he was in the top 50 best -selling titles for three consecutive 420 00:30:17,580 --> 00:30:18,880 And you don't know who he is? 421 00:30:19,960 --> 00:30:23,400 Following its publication in 1998, I was eight. 422 00:31:20,290 --> 00:31:21,290 Hello? 423 00:31:22,250 --> 00:31:24,650 Ah, yeah, I did, yeah. Sorry to have woken you up. 424 00:31:26,290 --> 00:31:27,810 Oh, I didn't wake you up. Ah, great. 425 00:31:29,890 --> 00:31:35,410 Yeah, I know it's 11 o 'clock, it's just that... No, no, no, no, I'm not 426 00:31:35,410 --> 00:31:37,390 suggesting you're a lazy layabout or anything like that. 427 00:31:40,530 --> 00:31:41,930 Theo. My name's Theo. 428 00:31:43,150 --> 00:31:45,830 I'm the son of Harry's friend, Jamie. 429 00:31:46,710 --> 00:31:52,210 Harry's ex -wife told me to... Yeah, I know she's not actually called Danielle. 430 00:31:54,450 --> 00:31:56,230 I don't know what her real name is either. 431 00:31:57,770 --> 00:31:58,770 Yeah. 432 00:31:59,950 --> 00:32:00,950 Yeah. 433 00:32:02,690 --> 00:32:06,490 She thought you might know where I can find George Walter. 434 00:32:07,500 --> 00:32:09,460 Can you take a train to Basel? Yeah. 435 00:32:10,180 --> 00:32:13,960 Yeah, of course I can. Just take the next train to Basel, and when you get to 436 00:32:13,960 --> 00:32:16,200 Basel, you call me, all right? Sure. No problem. 437 00:32:16,420 --> 00:32:17,419 Not before. 438 00:32:17,420 --> 00:32:19,480 When I get to Basel. How tall are you? 439 00:32:19,780 --> 00:32:22,160 Sorry? Your father wasn't very tall, was he? 440 00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:23,760 About average. 441 00:32:23,940 --> 00:32:25,500 So you're about average, too? 442 00:32:25,860 --> 00:32:26,839 More or less. 443 00:32:26,840 --> 00:32:28,580 Okay, fine. See you later. Ciao, ciao. 444 00:32:30,140 --> 00:32:33,120 See you later, then. 445 00:32:34,260 --> 00:32:35,260 Ciao, ciao. 446 00:33:05,360 --> 00:33:07,300 Hello, Werner. I've just arrived at the station. 447 00:33:08,180 --> 00:33:09,180 I know. 448 00:33:09,240 --> 00:33:10,240 Look straight ahead. 449 00:33:15,800 --> 00:33:16,800 Hello, young man. 450 00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:18,080 Young man! 451 00:33:19,520 --> 00:33:21,160 Have you got any identification? 452 00:33:23,240 --> 00:33:24,240 This way. 453 00:33:25,540 --> 00:33:29,600 Danielle is a crazy woman. Don't believe the things she says. Especially not her 454 00:33:29,600 --> 00:33:31,140 name. What exactly is her name? 455 00:33:31,700 --> 00:33:34,560 I don't know, my friend, but it certainly isn't Danielle. 456 00:33:35,080 --> 00:33:36,920 That's what she's saying. Don't believe her. 457 00:33:37,240 --> 00:33:38,240 No, that's what she's saying. 458 00:33:38,540 --> 00:33:40,520 She's saying Danielle isn't her name. 459 00:33:40,740 --> 00:33:41,880 I'm sure it isn't. 460 00:33:42,920 --> 00:33:44,300 She gets upset about it. 461 00:33:45,080 --> 00:33:47,260 There's no reason to get upset about it. 462 00:33:47,820 --> 00:33:49,700 Danielle is a perfectly decent name. 463 00:33:50,020 --> 00:33:52,960 Much more decent than, let's say, Lolita. 464 00:33:55,280 --> 00:33:56,960 You're a handsome boy, you know. 465 00:33:57,560 --> 00:34:02,140 Your father was a very handsome man. You look a lot like him. I know. I get told 466 00:34:02,140 --> 00:34:02,969 that a lot. 467 00:34:02,970 --> 00:34:06,970 Yeah, people must tell you this all the time. They do. I get pretty tired of it. 468 00:34:08,929 --> 00:34:09,929 Well... Go on. 469 00:34:10,050 --> 00:34:11,310 You can be honest with me. 470 00:34:12,550 --> 00:34:13,750 You're hungry, aren't you? 471 00:34:14,110 --> 00:34:16,050 Hungry? Yeah, don't you want to eat? 472 00:34:17,170 --> 00:34:18,830 I... Why don't you go by the river? 473 00:34:19,489 --> 00:34:20,510 I will invite you. 474 00:34:22,110 --> 00:34:24,650 That's... We eat, and then you can tell me while you're in Basel. 475 00:34:25,510 --> 00:34:26,850 I'm in Basel to see you. 476 00:34:27,130 --> 00:34:30,929 Exactly. You can tell me why you're in Basel while we eat. I don't mind. You 477 00:34:30,929 --> 00:34:31,929 like salsiccia? 478 00:34:34,500 --> 00:34:35,500 George Walter. 479 00:34:38,560 --> 00:34:39,580 Yes, I know him. 480 00:34:40,320 --> 00:34:41,679 He's a very unusual man. 481 00:34:41,900 --> 00:34:42,900 You find him intriguing. 482 00:34:43,179 --> 00:34:46,400 And do you know where I will find him? Of course I don't know that. 483 00:34:46,900 --> 00:34:48,679 Nobody knows where to find him. 484 00:34:48,880 --> 00:34:49,880 George Walter? 485 00:34:50,739 --> 00:34:51,940 But don't worry, young man. 486 00:34:52,179 --> 00:34:53,460 I'll make some inquiries. 487 00:34:53,699 --> 00:34:54,438 You will? 488 00:34:54,440 --> 00:34:55,440 Of course I will. 489 00:34:55,719 --> 00:34:57,180 Thanks. First wheat. 490 00:34:57,460 --> 00:34:59,380 Then we have long, passionate sex. 491 00:34:59,600 --> 00:35:01,580 And then I'll make a few inquiries. 492 00:35:04,520 --> 00:35:05,560 I'm only joking. 493 00:35:05,880 --> 00:35:07,080 Who do you take me for? 494 00:35:07,440 --> 00:35:09,400 I will make one or two phone calls first. 495 00:35:09,920 --> 00:35:11,840 Then we will have long, passionate sex. 496 00:35:12,180 --> 00:35:13,680 I'm still only joking. 497 00:35:14,200 --> 00:35:16,340 You need to have more sense of humor, my friend. 498 00:35:16,900 --> 00:35:20,560 You're an English boy, aren't you? You're supposed to find things funny. 499 00:35:20,760 --> 00:35:21,760 Cornish. 500 00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:24,140 Sorry? I'm from Cornwall, originally. 501 00:35:24,660 --> 00:35:29,120 Are you saying that people in Cornwall have no sense of humor? Oh, no, they do. 502 00:35:29,500 --> 00:35:30,520 You young people. 503 00:35:30,740 --> 00:35:32,160 You're so bloody serious. 504 00:35:32,500 --> 00:35:33,620 You have to lighten up. 505 00:35:34,480 --> 00:35:35,480 I'll show you something. 506 00:35:35,500 --> 00:35:39,520 First we eat, then we have coffee, then we smoke. Then I'll show you something. 507 00:35:40,180 --> 00:35:41,820 Don't worry, it's not my cock. 508 00:35:46,380 --> 00:35:49,460 Tell me, why are you looking for your father now? 509 00:35:49,760 --> 00:35:51,320 I'm not looking for my father. 510 00:35:52,620 --> 00:35:54,020 What are you looking for? 511 00:35:54,440 --> 00:35:56,620 I'm looking for somebody who knew my father. 512 00:35:57,380 --> 00:35:58,380 Why? 513 00:35:58,760 --> 00:36:00,020 Because I didn't. Oh. 514 00:36:02,620 --> 00:36:03,780 That's a good enough reason. 515 00:36:04,460 --> 00:36:07,300 To look for somebody who knew your father because you didn't? 516 00:36:07,880 --> 00:36:09,480 Everybody should know their father. 517 00:36:09,740 --> 00:36:12,160 After all, he's half of your genetic makeup. 518 00:36:12,820 --> 00:36:13,820 That's good. 519 00:36:16,300 --> 00:36:17,820 You're not afraid, are you? 520 00:36:18,840 --> 00:36:20,180 Of what? Of anything. 521 00:36:21,220 --> 00:36:22,220 Water. 522 00:36:22,520 --> 00:36:23,520 Sharp objects. 523 00:36:24,500 --> 00:36:25,500 The unexpected. 524 00:36:25,900 --> 00:36:26,900 The dark. 525 00:36:27,920 --> 00:36:28,980 Not really, no. 526 00:36:29,700 --> 00:36:30,700 Heights? 527 00:36:32,060 --> 00:36:33,460 No, I can handle heights. 528 00:36:34,640 --> 00:36:35,760 Can you handle loaves? 529 00:36:37,180 --> 00:36:38,180 I get by. 530 00:36:39,720 --> 00:36:40,720 Young loaves. 531 00:36:42,300 --> 00:36:44,160 They're very different to old loaves. 532 00:36:45,280 --> 00:36:49,140 If you can handle young loaves, believe me, you can handle anything. 533 00:36:49,880 --> 00:36:50,880 They're the worst. 534 00:36:52,800 --> 00:36:54,160 That would be a loaf, wouldn't it? 535 00:36:54,780 --> 00:36:56,600 What would? The opposite of a height. 536 00:36:57,100 --> 00:36:58,220 That would be a loaf. 537 00:36:58,900 --> 00:36:59,900 Are you in love? 538 00:37:01,040 --> 00:37:02,040 Who with? 539 00:37:02,260 --> 00:37:03,520 Somebody. Anybody. 540 00:37:05,840 --> 00:37:07,020 No. That's good. 541 00:37:08,140 --> 00:37:09,280 Why is that good? 542 00:37:10,500 --> 00:37:11,800 Because it gets in the way. 543 00:37:12,960 --> 00:37:13,960 Of what? 544 00:37:14,560 --> 00:37:15,560 The truth. 545 00:37:16,640 --> 00:37:17,640 What truth? 546 00:37:18,200 --> 00:37:19,640 Whatever the truth may be. 547 00:37:20,120 --> 00:37:23,860 Have you ever been in love and had the truth and nothing but the truth? 548 00:37:24,820 --> 00:37:25,820 I'm 19. 549 00:37:27,240 --> 00:37:29,200 You're quick, Theo. I like that. 550 00:37:30,080 --> 00:37:31,880 You must be hungry again by now. 551 00:37:34,000 --> 00:37:34,999 Come on. 552 00:37:35,000 --> 00:37:36,260 Let's go and have another sausage. 553 00:37:36,800 --> 00:37:38,860 You do like your sausages, don't you? 554 00:37:39,640 --> 00:37:42,460 Yes, but only to eat. 555 00:37:43,400 --> 00:37:44,720 Always remember this. 556 00:37:45,040 --> 00:37:50,060 A sausage is something to eat, not something to be. 557 00:38:05,110 --> 00:38:07,270 Yeah, of course I know George. But? 558 00:38:07,690 --> 00:38:09,350 But, I don't know where he is. 559 00:38:09,550 --> 00:38:11,650 You have no phone number, no email. 560 00:38:12,170 --> 00:38:13,410 He was your friend. 561 00:38:13,670 --> 00:38:15,390 Yeah, George is everybody's friend. 562 00:38:15,670 --> 00:38:16,670 And? 563 00:38:16,790 --> 00:38:20,610 And look, if Eva says that Danielle is the person to ask, then Danielle is the 564 00:38:20,610 --> 00:38:22,750 person to ask. She followed him to Switzerland. 565 00:38:23,130 --> 00:38:24,130 She followed him? 566 00:38:24,190 --> 00:38:25,250 Yeah, well, pretty much. 567 00:38:25,770 --> 00:38:26,770 After we broke up. 568 00:38:27,030 --> 00:38:28,210 She left you for him? 569 00:38:29,010 --> 00:38:30,250 No, I didn't say that. 570 00:38:30,630 --> 00:38:31,589 But she did. 571 00:38:31,590 --> 00:38:33,370 No, not as far as I'm aware. 572 00:38:33,840 --> 00:38:35,360 And she knows how to find George Walter? 573 00:38:35,640 --> 00:38:37,480 No one's seen George for years. 574 00:38:37,880 --> 00:38:40,160 I mean, even his agent doesn't know where he is. How many years? 575 00:38:41,020 --> 00:38:42,020 Ten, maybe more. 576 00:38:43,080 --> 00:38:44,080 Ten years, exactly. 577 00:38:44,660 --> 00:38:46,440 Ten, maybe more. More or less. 578 00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:52,360 Since Dad... I'm going to Europe. 579 00:38:52,960 --> 00:38:56,020 There's a weirdness about all this, which just seems a little too studied. 580 00:38:56,260 --> 00:38:57,600 You're not telling me everything you know. 581 00:38:57,940 --> 00:39:00,700 Eva doesn't know everything you're telling me, and obviously the only 582 00:39:00,700 --> 00:39:02,740 can shed a light on it is this mysterious George. 583 00:39:03,390 --> 00:39:04,610 who happens to be in Switzerland. 584 00:39:05,510 --> 00:39:09,710 Theo, I know Switzerland is a small country, but you're not going to just 585 00:39:09,710 --> 00:39:11,430 into them there, are you? How do you know? 586 00:39:12,030 --> 00:39:13,130 Fair point. I don't. 587 00:39:13,430 --> 00:39:16,830 Maybe you'll just bump into them there with the cows and daffodils. 588 00:39:17,030 --> 00:39:19,190 Edelweiss. Well, I'm sure they have daffodils. Boys. 589 00:39:19,490 --> 00:39:20,490 Do you think it's stupid? 590 00:39:21,490 --> 00:39:24,750 No. No, I don't think it's stupid. It's adventure. 591 00:39:27,290 --> 00:39:29,090 Mum's left me some of her savings, hasn't she? 592 00:39:29,750 --> 00:39:31,090 Yeah, she's left you all of it. 593 00:39:31,410 --> 00:39:32,430 Can you lend me in advance? 594 00:39:32,960 --> 00:39:33,960 All right, hang on. 595 00:39:41,920 --> 00:39:42,920 Jesus! 596 00:39:43,700 --> 00:39:45,500 I'm not emigrating to New Zealand. 597 00:39:46,140 --> 00:39:47,560 What are you, a drug dealer? 598 00:39:47,840 --> 00:39:49,360 Who carries this amount of cash? 599 00:39:49,960 --> 00:39:51,740 It's just potatoes from last night. 600 00:39:57,800 --> 00:39:59,020 Say hi to Daniel for me. 601 00:40:00,840 --> 00:40:01,840 I will. 602 00:40:13,250 --> 00:40:18,370 If you do go to Zurich you're gonna You'll be going back. You'll be going 603 00:40:18,370 --> 00:40:23,870 into the past and you know and you'll go back further and further into your own 604 00:40:23,870 --> 00:40:29,490 history and you may even disappear in What I mean is 605 00:40:29,490 --> 00:40:32,130 don't be afraid of it 606 00:40:32,940 --> 00:40:37,600 All right, and take care of everyone you meet and everything you find because 607 00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:42,120 they're all part of your dad and so they're all part of you. 608 00:40:44,620 --> 00:40:45,640 Come on, come here. 609 00:40:48,720 --> 00:40:49,960 All right, are you going to go with him? 610 00:40:50,480 --> 00:40:53,440 I've got life, mate. I can't just drop everything and go to Switzerland. 611 00:40:53,820 --> 00:40:55,700 Well, maybe it's better that way. 612 00:40:55,960 --> 00:40:56,960 Why? 613 00:40:57,020 --> 00:40:59,100 Well, this way doesn't look like a quest. 614 00:41:00,020 --> 00:41:01,020 A quest? 615 00:41:01,220 --> 00:41:02,220 Hurry. 616 00:41:02,400 --> 00:41:04,940 He looked me up. I got him in touch with Werner. 617 00:41:07,120 --> 00:41:08,900 I don't know what he has. 618 00:41:09,120 --> 00:41:10,160 You know Werner. 619 00:41:10,420 --> 00:41:12,940 He pulls a few strings, he makes a few calls. 620 00:41:13,340 --> 00:41:15,360 He's properly known all along. 621 00:41:15,860 --> 00:41:17,460 I wouldn't put it past him. 622 00:41:19,620 --> 00:41:21,100 No, and I didn't ask. 623 00:41:22,140 --> 00:41:24,800 Because I don't need to know where George Walter is. 624 00:41:25,760 --> 00:41:27,380 Over him, Harry. 625 00:41:31,650 --> 00:41:36,450 Contrary to what the majority of people seem to think, I was never actually 626 00:41:36,450 --> 00:41:37,450 under him. 627 00:41:39,290 --> 00:41:44,230 I'm all right, thank you. The doctors say I'll be all right, so I'll probably 628 00:41:44,230 --> 00:41:45,209 all right. 629 00:41:45,210 --> 00:41:46,210 I suppose. 630 00:41:49,490 --> 00:41:50,770 No, I won't. 631 00:41:52,830 --> 00:41:57,350 Because the only person who needs to know where George Walter is, is Theo. 632 00:41:58,870 --> 00:41:59,870 Theo. 633 00:42:03,140 --> 00:42:04,220 Yes. Is he gone? 634 00:42:37,190 --> 00:42:43,930 I took a ride late last night, deep into that countryside. 635 00:42:48,210 --> 00:42:55,010 None other thing I ought to do, pending on 636 00:42:55,010 --> 00:43:00,170 my mind, pending on my mind. 637 00:43:13,640 --> 00:43:14,640 George Walter? 638 00:43:15,600 --> 00:43:16,600 Theo? 639 00:43:17,560 --> 00:43:18,560 Yeah. 640 00:43:28,900 --> 00:43:30,480 You're Jamie's Theo. 641 00:43:50,990 --> 00:43:53,630 Eva, Danielle, Werner. 642 00:43:54,370 --> 00:43:55,990 You took that with Werner. 643 00:43:56,270 --> 00:43:57,690 He didn't tell you I was coming? 644 00:43:58,010 --> 00:44:00,410 He couldn't. Not unless he came here first. 645 00:44:00,850 --> 00:44:01,870 You really have no phone? 646 00:44:03,730 --> 00:44:05,090 There's a phone in the village. 647 00:44:05,490 --> 00:44:07,010 Left from the Harrod Wall. 648 00:44:07,510 --> 00:44:08,510 No internet. 649 00:44:08,610 --> 00:44:09,610 No mobile. 650 00:44:10,610 --> 00:44:12,350 No connection with the outside world. 651 00:44:13,550 --> 00:44:17,110 I reckon if the outside world needed me, it would come and find me. 652 00:44:19,790 --> 00:44:20,790 And it did. 653 00:44:49,480 --> 00:44:52,380 The tide is rising fast. 654 00:44:56,280 --> 00:44:57,920 You haven't asked me why I'm here. 655 00:45:00,480 --> 00:45:02,660 Why much are you going to tell me why you're here? 656 00:45:04,820 --> 00:45:05,820 Yeah. 657 00:45:08,180 --> 00:45:09,240 Whenever you're ready. 658 00:45:10,160 --> 00:45:11,160 There's no rush. 659 00:45:12,100 --> 00:45:16,620 Up here, time doesn't really pass so much. It's amble. 660 00:45:17,160 --> 00:45:18,240 I get the impression. 661 00:45:20,330 --> 00:45:23,350 I get the impression this is the kind of place where you shouldn't rush things. 662 00:45:23,690 --> 00:45:24,710 You should never rush things. 663 00:45:26,770 --> 00:45:27,770 Here you come. 664 00:45:31,670 --> 00:45:34,870 They're shooting rounds off at my feet. 665 00:45:39,390 --> 00:45:42,530 They're shooting rounds off at my feet. 666 00:45:47,180 --> 00:45:50,320 They're shooting rounds off at my feet. 667 00:45:54,340 --> 00:45:58,000 They're shooting rounds off at my feet. 668 00:46:04,060 --> 00:46:10,600 Every time I gain some ground, something turns me 669 00:46:10,600 --> 00:46:11,620 back down. 670 00:46:15,630 --> 00:46:19,190 The cuckoo's been breeding in the robin's nest. 671 00:46:20,350 --> 00:46:22,930 It's just a law of love, I guess. 672 00:46:23,950 --> 00:46:26,790 I'm pending on my mind. 673 00:46:27,870 --> 00:46:30,450 What hold you and I? 674 00:46:56,270 --> 00:46:57,490 Eva who got me in touch with Danielle. 675 00:46:57,750 --> 00:46:58,770 I remember Eva. 676 00:47:03,370 --> 00:47:04,790 She thought you might know who this is. 677 00:47:09,430 --> 00:47:10,530 It's your dad, Jane. 678 00:47:13,390 --> 00:47:15,630 Eva thought you might know who this is behind the camera. 679 00:47:17,310 --> 00:47:18,490 Who dad is looking at. 680 00:47:18,690 --> 00:47:19,730 Oh, that's me, Joel. 681 00:47:28,720 --> 00:47:31,180 I'm not serious. I'm not humorous. I'm factual. Why? 682 00:47:32,580 --> 00:47:33,580 This is you? 683 00:47:34,020 --> 00:47:35,200 Behind the camera, yes. 684 00:47:35,640 --> 00:47:36,640 It's my camera. 685 00:47:37,040 --> 00:47:40,180 It's a party of some description. I can't remember what the occasion was. 686 00:47:40,180 --> 00:47:41,180 30th birthday. 687 00:47:41,420 --> 00:47:42,420 That sounds about right. 688 00:47:45,400 --> 00:47:46,400 And you shot this? 689 00:47:47,340 --> 00:47:51,040 I shot this with an old camera I'd inherited from my grandmother at the 690 00:47:51,140 --> 00:47:53,520 yes. From Pupa Atheist, isn't it? It's a film. 691 00:47:56,280 --> 00:47:57,420 Dad is looking at you. 692 00:47:57,830 --> 00:47:59,010 Jane's looking at me, yeah. 693 00:48:06,390 --> 00:48:07,790 So Jack was in love with you? 694 00:48:21,350 --> 00:48:26,670 I see. I was in love with your dad. 695 00:48:38,670 --> 00:48:39,670 Was it? 696 00:48:41,470 --> 00:48:45,190 I was in love with Jamie and I stayed in love with Jamie. 697 00:48:49,250 --> 00:48:53,230 It could well be that your dad, Jamie, was the only person I ever loved. 698 00:49:16,620 --> 00:49:23,520 She An answer look back 699 00:49:23,520 --> 00:49:30,480 That opens up a whole new set of 700 00:49:30,480 --> 00:49:31,480 questions 701 00:49:49,290 --> 00:49:50,390 Maybe time for some food. 702 00:50:26,860 --> 00:50:28,120 You want to continue here for a bit? 703 00:50:29,140 --> 00:50:32,180 Sure. It's really thin, like this. 704 00:50:32,460 --> 00:50:33,460 No problem. 705 00:50:45,120 --> 00:50:46,120 What? 706 00:50:46,920 --> 00:50:47,920 Thanks, perfect. 707 00:50:48,520 --> 00:50:49,900 Just continue. 708 00:50:52,140 --> 00:50:53,660 I'm going to stay here for a while. 709 00:50:55,200 --> 00:50:57,510 Alright. I don't have anywhere else to go. 710 00:51:00,850 --> 00:51:01,970 Make yourself at home. 711 00:51:04,930 --> 00:51:07,950 Cheers. As long as you don't expect me to entertain you. 712 00:51:08,170 --> 00:51:09,170 I don't. 713 00:51:09,370 --> 00:51:10,370 I don't cook. 714 00:51:11,010 --> 00:51:12,530 Don't expect me to cook for you. 715 00:51:12,750 --> 00:51:13,790 That's okay, I can cook for myself. 716 00:51:16,010 --> 00:51:17,270 I'll cook for you too, if you like. 717 00:51:18,470 --> 00:51:19,470 Anything you don't eat? 718 00:51:19,770 --> 00:51:20,950 No, I eat everything. 719 00:51:23,110 --> 00:51:24,110 Is that enough? 720 00:51:24,360 --> 00:51:25,740 Yeah, that should be good timing. 721 00:51:28,120 --> 00:51:29,120 What is it? 722 00:51:29,700 --> 00:51:34,680 Nothing. It's just... your whole... being. 723 00:51:35,560 --> 00:51:36,560 I'm ten. 724 00:51:39,760 --> 00:51:41,080 I'm not my dad, George. 725 00:51:51,080 --> 00:51:52,080 I know. 726 00:51:56,810 --> 00:51:58,570 If you were, it'd be very freaky indeed. 727 00:52:12,510 --> 00:52:14,310 You were ten when Jamie died. 728 00:52:15,010 --> 00:52:16,010 Yes. 729 00:52:16,670 --> 00:52:17,750 Now you're twenty. 730 00:52:18,270 --> 00:52:19,270 Just about. 731 00:52:24,250 --> 00:52:25,890 Welcome to the mountains, Theo. 732 00:52:33,230 --> 00:52:34,230 What I don't get is why. 733 00:52:36,230 --> 00:52:37,390 Why come here? 734 00:52:39,950 --> 00:52:45,030 Why withdraw yourself from the world? Why tuck yourself away like some fucking 735 00:52:45,030 --> 00:52:47,150 monk? Hermit. Hermit, then. 736 00:52:47,990 --> 00:52:49,790 Why take yourself away from people? 737 00:52:51,150 --> 00:52:52,150 Is that necessary? 738 00:52:52,610 --> 00:52:54,370 Yes. Why? 739 00:52:55,190 --> 00:52:56,930 Because the world keeps moving. 740 00:52:58,090 --> 00:52:59,090 Accelerating. 741 00:52:59,870 --> 00:53:00,870 Restless. 742 00:53:01,320 --> 00:53:02,620 You can rest when you're dead, can't you? 743 00:53:03,660 --> 00:53:05,200 Fath's been before, so it's him. 744 00:53:05,420 --> 00:53:07,780 And? And he is. Good for him. 745 00:53:08,420 --> 00:53:09,520 He's certainly resting. 746 00:53:09,860 --> 00:53:12,500 By the time he was mine, he'd been dead for about ten years. 747 00:53:19,960 --> 00:53:21,440 And this is living for you. 748 00:53:24,000 --> 00:53:25,880 I wanted time to slow down. 749 00:53:26,820 --> 00:53:29,000 Time was running away too fast for me. 750 00:53:29,620 --> 00:53:30,620 I couldn't... 751 00:53:31,950 --> 00:53:33,850 I didn't want to keep up. 752 00:53:34,110 --> 00:53:36,390 I didn't want to have to keep running. 753 00:53:38,010 --> 00:53:39,370 So you come here. 754 00:53:39,730 --> 00:53:40,790 I came here. 755 00:53:41,390 --> 00:53:42,390 And? 756 00:53:42,910 --> 00:53:43,910 And. 757 00:53:44,870 --> 00:53:46,390 Has time slowed down for you? 758 00:53:48,550 --> 00:53:49,550 It has. 759 00:53:49,590 --> 00:53:50,610 And it hasn't. 760 00:53:52,330 --> 00:53:54,110 It has slowed down for me. 761 00:53:54,510 --> 00:53:56,870 It feels like it's slowed down. 762 00:53:59,050 --> 00:54:04,430 But in actual fact, when it's over, there's nothing to remember it by. 763 00:54:05,310 --> 00:54:08,110 So you don't even notice you've had it. It's just gone. 764 00:54:10,650 --> 00:54:13,310 And you think, where did that go? 765 00:54:15,510 --> 00:54:17,130 Where did ten years go? 766 00:54:18,770 --> 00:54:23,910 There's not one moment in ten years that turns out worth remembering. 767 00:54:30,410 --> 00:54:31,410 In 10 years. 768 00:55:28,790 --> 00:55:30,350 You weren't at Dad's funeral, were you? 769 00:55:30,950 --> 00:55:31,950 No, I wasn't. 770 00:55:32,710 --> 00:55:33,710 Why not? 771 00:55:34,730 --> 00:55:36,130 I didn't want to upset anyone. 772 00:55:36,790 --> 00:55:38,250 You didn't want to upset my mother. 773 00:55:38,730 --> 00:55:40,170 I didn't want to upset anyone. 774 00:55:40,450 --> 00:55:42,250 The only person you could have upset was my mother. 775 00:55:42,770 --> 00:55:44,470 I didn't want to upset her, either. 776 00:55:44,690 --> 00:55:45,690 You couldn't upset me, could you? 777 00:55:46,630 --> 00:55:47,910 I didn't even know who you were. 778 00:55:48,970 --> 00:55:51,130 And I doubt you could have upset Harry. He liked you. 779 00:55:51,730 --> 00:55:52,509 He does? 780 00:55:52,510 --> 00:55:53,890 Yes, some people like you. 781 00:55:54,130 --> 00:55:55,370 That's very kind of them. 782 00:56:06,350 --> 00:56:07,189 Do you want one? 783 00:56:07,190 --> 00:56:08,190 No thanks. 784 00:56:16,970 --> 00:56:17,970 What? 785 00:56:19,230 --> 00:56:20,230 Nothing. 786 00:56:40,560 --> 00:56:41,720 It wasn't an accident. 787 00:56:45,540 --> 00:56:46,540 I know. 788 00:56:49,360 --> 00:56:50,360 How do you know? 789 00:56:52,200 --> 00:56:53,200 I know. 790 00:56:58,040 --> 00:56:59,360 He could have chosen something. 791 00:57:00,860 --> 00:57:01,860 Somebody, couldn't he? 792 00:57:03,920 --> 00:57:05,600 He could not have chosen nothing, couldn't he? 793 00:57:08,620 --> 00:57:09,620 Yes. 794 00:57:13,720 --> 00:57:14,720 Yes, he could. 795 00:57:19,040 --> 00:57:20,040 But he didn't. 796 00:57:21,940 --> 00:57:22,940 Did he? 797 00:57:31,480 --> 00:57:32,820 Do you mind if I turn in now? 798 00:57:33,760 --> 00:57:34,760 No, of course. 799 00:57:56,650 --> 00:58:02,070 Will you come to the edge with me, my love, 800 00:58:02,230 --> 00:58:09,130 and hold my hand 801 00:58:09,130 --> 00:58:10,130 in yours? 802 00:58:11,590 --> 00:58:17,750 Or will you find another folly 803 00:58:17,750 --> 00:58:24,490 and cast our love 804 00:58:24,490 --> 00:58:25,490 adrift? 805 00:58:36,330 --> 00:58:41,510 Well, my heart's been won, my love. 806 00:58:43,230 --> 00:58:49,670 And my soul is waning too. 807 00:58:51,310 --> 00:58:57,810 Will you come to the edge with me, my love? 808 00:58:59,590 --> 00:59:05,070 Our love is so long. 809 00:59:54,920 --> 01:00:00,860 Like molten steel inside my blood it's moving. 810 01:00:03,780 --> 01:00:08,880 Centering on my true love's child. 811 01:00:10,660 --> 01:00:16,680 No longer her hand will I be holding. 812 01:00:18,920 --> 01:00:24,580 And if alone I stand here at the end 813 01:00:24,580 --> 01:00:35,280 Well, 814 01:00:35,300 --> 01:00:40,500 I'll sing no more to entertain or spy in 815 01:00:40,500 --> 01:00:47,230 And I will dance no longer to 816 01:00:47,230 --> 01:00:48,470 be free. 817 01:00:50,390 --> 01:00:57,370 But I will sing for those who know a love that's 818 01:00:57,370 --> 01:00:58,370 been lost. 819 01:00:58,650 --> 01:01:01,990 And I will dance to her 820 01:01:20,940 --> 01:01:27,940 And you think... And you think Dad killed 821 01:01:27,940 --> 01:01:29,020 himself because of you? 822 01:01:33,800 --> 01:01:34,980 I don't think that. 823 01:02:30,640 --> 01:02:31,660 You never opened it. 824 01:02:32,180 --> 01:02:33,460 I know what it said. 825 01:02:34,040 --> 01:02:35,040 How? 826 01:02:35,440 --> 01:02:36,440 I wrote it. 827 01:02:38,240 --> 01:02:39,240 Is that handwriting? 828 01:02:39,740 --> 01:02:40,740 Yes. 829 01:02:43,220 --> 01:02:44,280 I don't get it. 830 01:02:44,640 --> 01:02:45,640 Open it. 831 01:03:09,040 --> 01:03:10,540 No, I can't live without you. 832 01:03:12,620 --> 01:03:17,980 And as I can't live with you, I've decided it's probably best I 833 01:03:17,980 --> 01:03:20,540 don't live at all. 834 01:03:23,660 --> 01:03:27,020 It's so, so good knowing you. 835 01:03:29,420 --> 01:03:32,280 And I've always dreamed. 836 01:03:33,860 --> 01:03:35,300 What is this, a joke? 837 01:03:36,080 --> 01:03:37,080 Ironically, yes. 838 01:03:38,250 --> 01:03:39,930 It was meant to be a joke. 839 01:03:40,410 --> 01:03:42,550 That's a thick, thick sense of humour you've got there. 840 01:03:43,050 --> 01:03:44,050 It's a humour. 841 01:03:44,890 --> 01:03:47,750 We laughed about it at the time. We found it funny. 842 01:03:48,770 --> 01:03:49,910 He signed it. 843 01:03:50,690 --> 01:03:52,490 Went to his desk, got an envelope. 844 01:03:52,870 --> 01:03:56,070 I dictated to him my address and I forgot about it. 845 01:03:57,870 --> 01:03:58,870 Until? 846 01:03:59,070 --> 01:04:00,670 Until he posted it. 847 01:04:01,370 --> 01:04:02,430 For Perot. 848 01:04:05,950 --> 01:04:07,170 Why didn't you open it? 849 01:04:08,140 --> 01:04:09,340 It could have been something different. 850 01:04:12,660 --> 01:04:18,780 I so hoped all these years I hoped it would be something different. 851 01:04:20,160 --> 01:04:21,600 But it isn't, is it? 852 01:04:24,500 --> 01:04:25,500 Jesus. 853 01:04:28,540 --> 01:04:29,540 Jesus. 854 01:04:31,520 --> 01:04:36,300 If he... If he felt like that about you, then why... 855 01:04:37,020 --> 01:04:38,360 Why couldn't he have lived with you? 856 01:04:39,060 --> 01:04:40,060 Why? 857 01:04:40,920 --> 01:04:42,640 I mean, he could have just left us, couldn't he? 858 01:04:43,820 --> 01:04:44,820 Mum would have understood. 859 01:04:45,600 --> 01:04:48,340 I mean, maybe not at first, but in time she would have coped. I would. 860 01:04:50,060 --> 01:04:51,620 These kinds of things happen. 861 01:04:52,260 --> 01:04:53,260 They happen. 862 01:04:54,380 --> 01:04:57,040 You could have been around. You could have been like Uncle George. 863 01:04:58,700 --> 01:05:00,240 It wouldn't have been that big a deal, would it? 864 01:05:00,500 --> 01:05:02,480 No, it wouldn't have been that big a deal. But? 865 01:05:02,800 --> 01:05:04,020 But I didn't bless him. 866 01:05:04,380 --> 01:05:05,380 Bless him what? 867 01:05:06,610 --> 01:05:08,670 Leave you and Alison and come and live with me. 868 01:05:09,950 --> 01:05:11,950 What's he going to? He asked if he should. 869 01:05:15,210 --> 01:05:16,210 I said no. 870 01:05:16,670 --> 01:05:17,670 Why? 871 01:05:18,530 --> 01:05:20,170 Because I didn't want to be responsible. 872 01:05:20,750 --> 01:05:25,130 Responsible? What's happened to him, what's happened to Alison, what's 873 01:05:25,130 --> 01:05:26,130 to you. 874 01:05:44,590 --> 01:05:45,670 How long did he have there? 875 01:05:45,950 --> 01:05:47,210 Nine years. 876 01:05:47,590 --> 01:05:50,010 Just over nine years. Before he was parted. 877 01:05:50,350 --> 01:05:51,390 Before I was born. 878 01:05:51,930 --> 01:05:53,810 Before they were married. 879 01:05:56,950 --> 01:05:58,010 Were you at their wedding? 880 01:05:58,370 --> 01:05:59,089 Of course. 881 01:05:59,090 --> 01:06:00,090 Were you best met? 882 01:06:00,490 --> 01:06:01,490 We weren't. 883 01:06:09,290 --> 01:06:11,110 You were the person he kissed at his wedding. 884 01:06:13,770 --> 01:06:14,770 He told me this. 885 01:06:16,570 --> 01:06:21,650 The one thing he told me about their wedding when I was about eight or nine 886 01:06:21,650 --> 01:06:26,890 that he kissed someone else at their wedding, but that I mustn't tell anyone 887 01:06:26,890 --> 01:06:29,590 else or Mum because it would make her cross. 888 01:06:32,750 --> 01:06:34,230 It was the best secret ever. 889 01:06:37,390 --> 01:06:38,390 And it was to you. 890 01:06:47,020 --> 01:06:48,020 Did you have an affair? 891 01:06:48,180 --> 01:06:50,000 No. In all these years? 892 01:06:50,320 --> 01:06:51,320 No. Why not? 893 01:06:51,540 --> 01:06:52,660 I didn't want to. 894 01:06:53,160 --> 01:06:54,160 Neither did I. 895 01:06:54,460 --> 01:06:56,220 So you never actually got it together? 896 01:06:56,960 --> 01:06:58,340 It wasn't really about that. 897 01:06:58,660 --> 01:07:02,240 It wasn't really about getting it together. Oh, come on, it's always about 898 01:07:03,140 --> 01:07:06,220 Come on, it's always about that. You must have done that. You must have done 899 01:07:06,220 --> 01:07:07,220 that. 900 01:07:07,800 --> 01:07:10,200 Where do you draw a line of getting it together? 901 01:07:11,540 --> 01:07:12,540 A kiss? 902 01:07:12,760 --> 01:07:13,760 A cuddle? 903 01:07:15,440 --> 01:07:21,020 The ability to sit in silence for hours and just... just be there. 904 01:07:23,440 --> 01:07:24,440 For hours. 905 01:07:26,240 --> 01:07:28,020 Does it have to be a buck to count? 906 01:07:31,300 --> 01:07:34,420 Maybe we did get together and never quite realised it. 907 01:07:35,000 --> 01:07:36,060 Why didn't you? 908 01:07:36,780 --> 01:07:38,120 He didn't want to. 909 01:07:38,680 --> 01:07:39,860 You wanted to. 910 01:07:40,140 --> 01:07:43,330 It takes two to tango. What if he wanted to but didn't dare? 911 01:07:43,590 --> 01:07:45,130 Oh, he would have plenty of opportunity. 912 01:07:45,790 --> 01:07:49,190 We spent a lot of time together, your dad and I. And you never initiated 913 01:07:49,190 --> 01:07:50,190 anything? 914 01:07:50,350 --> 01:07:51,890 He likes it used to. 915 01:07:52,130 --> 01:07:53,410 Of course not. Why not? 916 01:07:53,890 --> 01:07:57,210 Maybe that's what he was waiting for. Maybe that's what he wanted. 917 01:07:57,510 --> 01:07:59,870 If that's what he wanted, all he had to do was say so. Do you do that? 918 01:08:00,830 --> 01:08:04,330 Tell people everything, exactly what you want? Do you just say so? 919 01:08:06,250 --> 01:08:07,250 What did he want? 920 01:08:08,750 --> 01:08:10,690 Everybody here more or less wants... 921 01:08:11,210 --> 01:08:12,210 What, to be loved? 922 01:08:12,410 --> 01:08:19,310 Yes. And he wasn't. 923 01:08:20,370 --> 01:08:21,569 You loved him. 924 01:08:24,170 --> 01:08:25,170 Exactly. 925 01:08:26,590 --> 01:08:28,210 And that turned him down. 926 01:08:30,609 --> 01:08:32,270 For marrying someone else? 927 01:08:32,529 --> 01:08:34,569 For choosing something else. 928 01:08:35,310 --> 01:08:36,609 He chose Alice. 929 01:08:37,180 --> 01:08:41,859 But he chose life in the residential road at the front garden. He chose a job 930 01:08:41,859 --> 01:08:42,698 and a car. 931 01:08:42,700 --> 01:08:43,700 He chose you. 932 01:08:44,540 --> 01:08:47,920 And none of it, none of it made him happy. 933 01:08:49,399 --> 01:08:50,700 I certainly didn't. 934 01:08:51,899 --> 01:08:52,899 Mum didn't. 935 01:08:55,160 --> 01:08:56,160 You did. 936 01:09:01,340 --> 01:09:03,680 It isn't just about happiness, Theo. 937 01:09:04,100 --> 01:09:06,180 Everybody is unhappy sometimes. 938 01:09:07,689 --> 01:09:09,270 But sometimes people get lost. 939 01:09:11,029 --> 01:09:15,510 And then it may be just a case of luck, if there's something with that, to bring 940 01:09:15,510 --> 01:09:16,529 them back to their power. 941 01:09:18,130 --> 01:09:20,149 And you weren't there for him to hold on to. 942 01:10:19,180 --> 01:10:26,080 I got to learn some letters from an old friend across 943 01:10:26,080 --> 01:10:27,080 the border. 944 01:10:30,660 --> 01:10:37,500 He writes his mind's been a -roving, but he's too scared to 945 01:10:37,500 --> 01:10:38,500 make that step. 946 01:10:40,340 --> 01:10:43,140 Oh, I got to walk on down. 947 01:10:45,940 --> 01:10:47,720 I got to walk on down. 948 01:10:56,840 --> 01:11:03,520 I see a big gray tomcat with his old bones on my tin 949 01:11:03,520 --> 01:11:04,520 roof. 950 01:11:07,440 --> 01:11:10,640 Here comes dear sweet Lily. 951 01:11:11,480 --> 01:11:15,400 She leaves sunshine all about her feet. 952 01:11:17,540 --> 01:11:20,080 I got to walk on down. 953 01:11:22,640 --> 01:11:24,740 I got to walk on down. 954 01:11:33,640 --> 01:11:34,740 Why did you come then? 955 01:11:35,940 --> 01:11:36,980 Apart from the time thing. 956 01:11:37,860 --> 01:11:39,120 Why are you here? To do what? 957 01:11:40,120 --> 01:11:41,580 I mean, if you're not writing. 958 01:11:42,840 --> 01:11:43,839 To think. 959 01:11:43,840 --> 01:11:44,840 And are you thinking? 960 01:11:45,060 --> 01:11:46,660 Yeah. What are you thinking? 961 01:11:48,280 --> 01:11:51,300 I'm thinking, time passes, come what may. 962 01:11:53,060 --> 01:11:55,160 I thought here it didn't pass so much as the anvil. 963 01:11:55,480 --> 01:11:56,480 That's an illusion. 964 01:11:58,080 --> 01:11:59,680 You should get yourself a mobile, George. 965 01:12:00,040 --> 01:12:02,160 And the next time you have a question like that, text me. 966 01:12:02,730 --> 01:12:04,270 I'll send you the answer straight away. 967 01:12:05,710 --> 01:12:07,030 That's what I used to think. 968 01:12:07,290 --> 01:12:11,270 What? That their answers are so obvious you could text them to someone straight 969 01:12:11,270 --> 01:12:12,590 away. And what do you think now? 970 01:12:13,950 --> 01:12:19,510 I think I know that the only thing that matters is what you actually do. 971 01:12:20,370 --> 01:12:24,370 That, and the people you do it with, and who. 972 01:12:24,770 --> 01:12:25,790 Again, mate, ask Theo. 973 01:12:26,050 --> 01:12:27,050 I have. 974 01:12:27,190 --> 01:12:29,710 And Theo came up with the answer. Both counts. 975 01:12:30,250 --> 01:12:31,670 It only took ten years. 976 01:12:32,270 --> 01:12:34,710 Well, I suppose you have the silence here, which is nice. 977 01:12:35,250 --> 01:12:36,250 Yes. 978 01:12:37,270 --> 01:12:38,930 But silence, too, is an addiction. 979 01:12:39,910 --> 01:12:41,570 Silence and thoughts adrift. 980 01:12:42,630 --> 01:12:44,870 The endless lure of inaction. 981 01:12:50,430 --> 01:12:51,850 What do you actually live on? 982 01:12:52,070 --> 01:12:52,869 Very little. 983 01:12:52,870 --> 01:12:54,350 There's nothing to spend money on here. 984 01:12:54,630 --> 01:12:55,630 Where does it come from, then? 985 01:12:55,930 --> 01:12:58,470 Oh, I make two good decisions in my life. 986 01:12:58,810 --> 01:13:00,730 Both eminently practical. 987 01:13:01,840 --> 01:13:05,580 The first was to buy a great big flat in London with all the money that came in 988 01:13:05,580 --> 01:13:06,700 when the book did really well. 989 01:13:08,040 --> 01:13:09,040 Was it good? 990 01:13:09,280 --> 01:13:10,280 The book? 991 01:13:10,540 --> 01:13:11,720 It is. It's a masterpiece. 992 01:13:12,720 --> 01:13:13,720 But? 993 01:13:14,580 --> 01:13:15,700 Nobody really knows why. 994 01:13:16,880 --> 01:13:17,880 Is that a problem? 995 01:13:18,200 --> 01:13:19,200 It is for me. 996 01:13:19,340 --> 01:13:20,340 Because you can't do it again? 997 01:13:20,580 --> 01:13:23,660 Because you can't control it. Not even that. Not even your own genius. 998 01:13:24,280 --> 01:13:25,960 You're a genius, are you? I have a genius. 999 01:13:26,660 --> 01:13:27,660 It's not uncommon. 1000 01:13:27,800 --> 01:13:30,220 So do a lot of people. So do you. Very obviously. 1001 01:13:30,700 --> 01:13:33,920 Having genius is not unusual. It's getting the thing out of you that's 1002 01:13:33,920 --> 01:13:35,980 difficult. They recognised you? 1003 01:13:36,760 --> 01:13:38,340 Pure luck, that. Nothing else. 1004 01:13:41,140 --> 01:13:42,140 Can I read it? 1005 01:13:42,420 --> 01:13:43,420 Of course. 1006 01:13:43,460 --> 01:13:46,480 You can walk into any bookshop and buy it. It's never been out of print. 1007 01:13:47,340 --> 01:13:48,460 You can't lend me a copy? 1008 01:13:49,240 --> 01:13:51,980 Or give me one even, as a present, like? I don't have one. 1009 01:13:52,460 --> 01:13:53,460 Not one copy? 1010 01:13:53,560 --> 01:13:54,560 No. 1011 01:13:55,040 --> 01:13:57,160 Jesus, you are difficult on purpose, aren't you? 1012 01:13:58,030 --> 01:14:01,030 Why can't you keep a copy of your own world -famous book so somebody who 1013 01:14:01,030 --> 01:14:02,030 can read it? 1014 01:14:03,730 --> 01:14:05,330 I bet you don't even have it as a PDF. 1015 01:14:05,690 --> 01:14:09,090 No. You do know what a PDF is, though? Yes, I do. 1016 01:14:11,130 --> 01:14:12,130 And the other one? 1017 01:14:12,690 --> 01:14:13,690 The other what? 1018 01:14:14,230 --> 01:14:15,890 The other good decision you said there were two. 1019 01:14:16,210 --> 01:14:18,150 Oh, to keep it flat. 1020 01:14:19,030 --> 01:14:20,610 Not sell it, rent it out. 1021 01:14:21,170 --> 01:14:22,430 It's paid my way ever since. 1022 01:14:25,450 --> 01:14:26,610 Can we have breakfast now? 1023 01:14:26,870 --> 01:14:32,740 Yeah. Not bunterfleisch. I mean, I like bunterfleisch, but can we have a proper 1024 01:14:32,740 --> 01:14:33,740 fry -up? 1025 01:14:49,240 --> 01:14:50,900 You know what your problem is, George? 1026 01:14:51,720 --> 01:14:54,880 I wouldn't make rhetorical questions out of tears. 1027 01:14:55,440 --> 01:14:56,440 They are. 1028 01:14:56,810 --> 01:14:58,690 Your problem is you wallow in your own misery. 1029 01:14:59,690 --> 01:15:02,190 If you are, you're a miserable thump and you wallow in it. 1030 01:15:02,710 --> 01:15:04,070 You love every moment of it. 1031 01:15:04,730 --> 01:15:08,350 You think, ah, greatness. I had it, but I can't recapture it. 1032 01:15:08,790 --> 01:15:11,730 Ah, fame. I had it, but it's so crashy I don't want it. 1033 01:15:12,290 --> 01:15:13,290 Ah, love. 1034 01:15:13,490 --> 01:15:16,670 It was mine, but I didn't understand it, so it can never be understood. 1035 01:15:17,430 --> 01:15:20,730 Ah, wisdom. I wish I were wise, but I know that I'm not, so at least let's 1036 01:15:20,730 --> 01:15:22,170 pretend to be. You're an act. 1037 01:15:22,590 --> 01:15:25,770 And this whole thing is played out for you as the audience, because the world 1038 01:15:25,770 --> 01:15:30,260 out there, has moved on from you a decade ago. They don't even care. The 1039 01:15:30,260 --> 01:15:34,100 reason you got a Wikipedia entry is because there's some other sad middle 1040 01:15:34,100 --> 01:15:37,140 out there who's deluded enough to think that because he's read your book and 1041 01:15:37,140 --> 01:15:40,800 probably had a wank over it, a bit of your genius has rubbed off on him. 1042 01:15:41,220 --> 01:15:45,740 So he probably goes around lecturing on the inner psychology of your characters. 1043 01:15:45,780 --> 01:15:49,800 It's all one great big fucking annoying pile of shite because you're fucked up, 1044 01:15:49,900 --> 01:15:52,860 he's fucked up, I'm fucked up, my dad was fucked up. 1045 01:15:53,550 --> 01:15:57,810 And all because you people can't get to grips with reality, which is that the 1046 01:15:57,810 --> 01:15:59,770 world is full of people. 1047 01:16:00,650 --> 01:16:05,710 So if you find somebody, anybody you can relate to, who gets you, and I mean who 1048 01:16:05,710 --> 01:16:10,710 really gets you, like you say, who you can sit with and not say a word and know 1049 01:16:10,710 --> 01:16:14,610 exactly where they're at. When you find someone who is present, you can bask in. 1050 01:16:15,790 --> 01:16:16,790 That's your glow, isn't it? 1051 01:16:17,810 --> 01:16:18,810 Bask in. 1052 01:16:19,790 --> 01:16:21,370 Because they make you feel lovely. 1053 01:16:22,620 --> 01:16:27,320 warm, they make you feel good, and alive with a tingle. When you cry to someone 1054 01:16:27,320 --> 01:16:33,440 like that, you fucking well hold on to them, and you fucking well tell them 1055 01:16:33,440 --> 01:16:36,900 you want them, and you go to their fucking funeral if they're stupid enough 1056 01:16:36,900 --> 01:16:38,320 fucking die on you, that's what you do. 1057 01:16:40,040 --> 01:16:41,700 How the fuck can that be so difficult? 1058 01:16:58,760 --> 01:16:59,800 And what's that now? 1059 01:17:00,480 --> 01:17:03,540 First we have breakfast, then we get drunk. 1060 01:17:36,380 --> 01:17:37,380 Well, 1061 01:17:40,800 --> 01:17:45,560 I know you know, baby, I got nothing left to lose. 1062 01:17:48,640 --> 01:17:54,240 Well, I know you know, baby, I got nothing more to prove. 1063 01:17:57,610 --> 01:18:03,390 If I hear that long gypsy song, I may just make my move. 1064 01:18:16,770 --> 01:18:23,050 You know, I walked an hour across the city, a song in my head. 1065 01:18:25,960 --> 01:18:31,800 Yeah, I walked and I crawled this city of songs in my head. 1066 01:18:34,880 --> 01:18:40,080 Now I find myself standing at the water's edge. 1067 01:18:43,260 --> 01:18:48,940 Oh, but how can I explain to you, baby, something you already know so well? 1068 01:18:52,750 --> 01:18:57,870 How can I explain to you baby something you already know so well 1069 01:18:57,870 --> 01:19:04,810 You're on a fast -moving train babe, and 1070 01:19:04,810 --> 01:19:07,130 I'm learning to stand still 1071 01:19:20,460 --> 01:19:25,960 But if you ever need some company or time of mine, just call my name. 1072 01:19:28,900 --> 01:19:34,680 If you ever need some company or time of mine, just call my name. 1073 01:19:38,000 --> 01:19:43,180 You opened up your door to a poor boy out in the rain. 1074 01:19:46,470 --> 01:19:52,390 Yeah, you've eased me down, now I won't breathe upon you. 1075 01:19:54,870 --> 01:20:01,130 Yeah, you've eased me down, now I won't breathe upon you. 1076 01:20:03,950 --> 01:20:09,830 Your mistletoe kissing's so good for a heart torn in two. 1077 01:20:57,840 --> 01:20:59,580 You're willfully eccentric, aren't you? 1078 01:21:00,140 --> 01:21:01,140 Good morning. 1079 01:21:01,980 --> 01:21:02,980 This whole thing. 1080 01:21:03,440 --> 01:21:07,880 The lonely hut, the typewriter, the no mobile policy, the pipe, the vinyl for 1081 01:21:07,880 --> 01:21:11,540 fuck's sake. I mean, it's consistent, I'll give you that, but it's a cliché 1082 01:21:11,540 --> 01:21:12,540 it's an act. 1083 01:21:12,580 --> 01:21:13,700 Would you like some coffee? 1084 01:21:13,980 --> 01:21:14,980 Who is all this for? 1085 01:21:15,800 --> 01:21:16,800 Or maybe tea. 1086 01:21:17,160 --> 01:21:19,640 Coffee's better here, don't you think? It's for me, isn't it? 1087 01:21:19,900 --> 01:21:21,280 This whole thing. For you? 1088 01:21:21,680 --> 01:21:24,480 Yeah. You knew I was coming, so you put on this act for me. 1089 01:21:24,680 --> 01:21:26,480 You can have some hot chocolate if you like. 1090 01:21:29,840 --> 01:21:30,840 How old are you? 1091 01:21:31,100 --> 01:21:33,280 I bet you're not even that old. 1092 01:21:33,620 --> 01:21:34,599 I'm not? 1093 01:21:34,600 --> 01:21:35,600 No. 1094 01:21:35,760 --> 01:21:39,240 I bet you're underneath all this bristling scrag. You're actually quite 1095 01:21:39,240 --> 01:21:39,879 your age. 1096 01:21:39,880 --> 01:21:41,640 For my age? Yes. You're what? 1097 01:21:42,420 --> 01:21:48,160 Dad was 33 when he died, so he'll be 43 this year. So you're probably 1098 01:21:48,160 --> 01:21:50,820 48. I bet you're not even 50. 1099 01:21:51,100 --> 01:21:54,300 No, I'm not even 50. 46, 47, something like that? Very close. 1100 01:21:54,580 --> 01:21:55,580 Well, you look about 60. 1101 01:21:55,680 --> 01:21:58,000 You look like my grandad. He looks bad for his age. 1102 01:21:58,300 --> 01:21:59,300 Thank you. 1103 01:21:59,340 --> 01:22:00,560 It isn't a fucking compliment. 1104 01:22:02,540 --> 01:22:03,540 Sit down. 1105 01:22:04,020 --> 01:22:05,260 I'm not joking. Sit down. 1106 01:22:31,310 --> 01:22:32,490 I started to climb. 1107 01:22:32,730 --> 01:22:37,310 I started to climb. I started to climb when I could not see. 1108 01:22:38,730 --> 01:22:40,030 Mountaineer was cold. 1109 01:22:40,690 --> 01:22:41,910 Mountaineer was high. 1110 01:22:42,530 --> 01:22:46,850 Mountaineer would roll with a moving feet. 1111 01:22:49,110 --> 01:22:53,410 Well, if you want my advice, then you'd better not start climbing. 1112 01:22:54,570 --> 01:22:56,230 Mountaineer would roll with a moving feet. 1113 01:23:06,760 --> 01:23:08,140 That's how it come my way. 1114 01:23:08,500 --> 01:23:10,220 That's how it come my way. 1115 01:23:10,440 --> 01:23:12,920 That's how it come my way when I was just a boy. 1116 01:23:14,480 --> 01:23:19,760 Girls come up weighing, take me by the hand, saying, I love you, you love me. 1117 01:23:20,520 --> 01:23:22,320 This boat will never spring a leak. 1118 01:23:25,100 --> 01:23:28,840 Well, the very next thing I find, man, that a woman's left me way behind. 1119 01:23:30,740 --> 01:23:33,580 And I'm standing on the summit of a mountain with her moving feet. 1120 01:24:26,700 --> 01:24:27,800 You wrote it all down. 1121 01:24:28,460 --> 01:24:29,460 I did. 1122 01:24:31,820 --> 01:24:32,820 You okay? 1123 01:24:33,720 --> 01:24:35,000 What happened last night? 1124 01:24:37,200 --> 01:24:38,200 Does it matter? 1125 01:24:59,900 --> 01:25:01,020 I wasn't looking for it. 1126 01:25:01,520 --> 01:25:02,520 Sorry. 1127 01:25:02,760 --> 01:25:03,800 I was looking for tissues. 1128 01:25:04,780 --> 01:25:05,780 Arthral. 1129 01:25:06,920 --> 01:25:07,920 That would have made sense. 1130 01:25:13,720 --> 01:25:18,580 It's not a... It's not typed about, Jake. 1131 01:25:18,800 --> 01:25:19,880 Do you mind if I type this up for you? 1132 01:25:20,780 --> 01:25:21,780 Why? 1133 01:25:22,040 --> 01:25:24,520 Because if you want to give this to your agent, it needs to be typed up. 1134 01:25:25,000 --> 01:25:26,780 I don't want to give this to my agent. 1135 01:25:27,100 --> 01:25:28,100 I do. 1136 01:25:29,380 --> 01:25:33,060 And if this is the original and there's no copy, I don't think you should let me 1137 01:25:33,060 --> 01:25:34,700 this. I wasn't going to. 1138 01:25:35,680 --> 01:25:40,280 Whereas I reckon if I stay here, I can have this typed up in a couple of weeks 1139 01:25:40,280 --> 01:25:41,280 or so. 1140 01:25:41,420 --> 01:25:43,880 You want to stay here for another couple of weeks, do you? 1141 01:25:45,580 --> 01:25:46,700 If that's okay with you. 1142 01:25:47,760 --> 01:25:49,240 Yeah, that's okay with me. 1143 01:25:52,000 --> 01:25:53,000 Good. 1144 01:25:55,440 --> 01:25:57,340 You can make breakfast while I read this. 1145 01:25:58,410 --> 01:25:59,750 And then tonight I'll make dinner. 1146 01:26:01,290 --> 01:26:02,690 What do you want for breakfast? 1147 01:26:04,650 --> 01:26:05,650 Everything. 1148 01:26:17,150 --> 01:26:18,150 What? 1149 01:26:19,010 --> 01:26:21,110 Nothing. It's just... Why didn't you type this up? 1150 01:26:21,770 --> 01:26:23,350 Your handwriting is atrocious. 1151 01:26:23,830 --> 01:26:25,110 I ran out of ribbon. 1152 01:26:25,970 --> 01:26:27,210 But now you've got some. 1153 01:26:27,450 --> 01:26:28,450 No. I'm still out. 1154 01:26:29,130 --> 01:26:30,770 Then how do you expect me to type this up for you? 1155 01:26:32,030 --> 01:26:33,030 I don't. 1156 01:27:32,410 --> 01:27:36,830 The symmetry in one sentence. 1157 01:27:48,590 --> 01:27:49,630 Serendipity. 1158 01:28:39,880 --> 01:28:43,100 It'd make me blue to know 1159 01:28:43,100 --> 01:28:49,240 We're all alone 1160 01:28:49,240 --> 01:28:56,140 in the end I'm 1161 01:28:56,140 --> 01:28:59,660 coming up to meet your smile 1162 01:28:59,660 --> 01:29:05,980 Nothing blue except the 1163 01:29:05,980 --> 01:29:07,680 sky 1164 01:29:19,240 --> 01:29:22,060 I don't claim to know the truth. 1165 01:29:25,860 --> 01:29:30,040 But I've seen trouble there on your mind. 1166 01:29:33,360 --> 01:29:38,240 And a pooping dove and a howling wolf. 1167 01:29:41,920 --> 01:29:45,460 Calling our hearts and our... 1168 01:30:06,060 --> 01:30:09,320 I've shown you the bitter side. 1169 01:30:12,700 --> 01:30:17,040 I want you to know that I was lying. 1170 01:30:20,540 --> 01:30:25,500 But I don't want to make you cry. 1171 01:30:28,280 --> 01:30:34,220 Your heart is an ocean and it's a tide on mine. 1172 01:30:57,930 --> 01:30:58,930 I want to know. 1173 01:31:02,250 --> 01:31:04,570 I want to know why my father died. 1174 01:31:07,130 --> 01:31:08,530 Why I didn't have a father. 1175 01:31:12,610 --> 01:31:14,030 It's not too much to ask, is it? 1176 01:31:17,450 --> 01:31:20,090 Your father was ill, Theo. 1177 01:31:24,030 --> 01:31:25,990 And the illness finally got to him. 1178 01:31:27,050 --> 01:31:28,050 That's all. 1179 01:31:29,970 --> 01:31:36,470 Jamie... When people say, he's depressed or 1180 01:31:36,470 --> 01:31:43,210 I'm depressed, they've no idea how offensive they're being without the 1181 01:31:43,210 --> 01:31:46,550 intention to people who are actually clinically depressed. 1182 01:31:50,710 --> 01:31:55,850 Jamie... Jamie grappled with depression all his life. 1183 01:31:56,410 --> 01:31:58,010 Certainly for as long as I'd known him. 1184 01:32:00,470 --> 01:32:01,470 Often, though. 1185 01:32:03,690 --> 01:32:06,590 It took a while for me to realise it. 1186 01:32:08,850 --> 01:32:10,450 It was a lot of fun, your dad. 1187 01:32:12,530 --> 01:32:14,830 A brilliant black sense of humour. 1188 01:32:15,270 --> 01:32:16,570 He was up a lot. 1189 01:32:19,390 --> 01:32:20,970 And when he was down... 1190 01:32:25,640 --> 01:32:28,660 Jamie wasn't depressed about something or someone. 1191 01:32:30,080 --> 01:32:31,080 He was ill. 1192 01:32:32,640 --> 01:32:35,200 It's like a cancer of the mind. 1193 01:32:39,900 --> 01:32:43,500 Sometimes people who have cancer, they respond really well to treatment. The 1194 01:32:43,500 --> 01:32:45,840 cancer goes away, sometimes forever. 1195 01:32:46,620 --> 01:32:49,660 Sometimes it goes away for a while and then it comes back. Sometimes I suppose 1196 01:32:49,660 --> 01:32:50,900 it doesn't really go away at all. 1197 01:32:51,380 --> 01:32:54,040 It just depends on the person. 1198 01:33:00,010 --> 01:33:01,370 It's no different with depression. 1199 01:33:02,230 --> 01:33:05,510 They only want to say, oh, he's going to have cancer today when they're talking 1200 01:33:05,510 --> 01:33:07,750 about somebody who's feeling under the weather, do you? 1201 01:33:08,630 --> 01:33:11,610 They do say he's depressed because the cat has died. 1202 01:33:12,910 --> 01:33:14,130 It's nonsense, Theo. 1203 01:33:14,490 --> 01:33:15,490 Nonsense. 1204 01:33:31,900 --> 01:33:33,860 Jamie didn't kill himself over me. 1205 01:33:36,080 --> 01:33:37,800 Jamie wasn't in love with me. 1206 01:33:38,280 --> 01:33:39,700 He loved me as a friend. 1207 01:33:40,160 --> 01:33:41,500 He was in love with you. 1208 01:33:42,840 --> 01:33:44,040 He was happy with you. 1209 01:33:44,880 --> 01:33:45,920 You made him happy. 1210 01:33:53,620 --> 01:33:54,620 There. 1211 01:33:55,560 --> 01:33:56,560 You made him happy. 1212 01:33:57,480 --> 01:33:59,360 Not just a little happy. You... 1213 01:34:01,960 --> 01:34:05,800 You meant something to him. Of course I did. Then what the fuck are you doing 1214 01:34:05,800 --> 01:34:06,800 here? 1215 01:34:07,860 --> 01:34:10,480 Why the fuck are you pissing your own life away like this? 1216 01:34:13,040 --> 01:34:17,040 I've made so many mistakes in my life, and not one of them can be undone. 1217 01:34:18,320 --> 01:34:19,660 That doesn't make me unique. 1218 01:34:21,080 --> 01:34:22,380 Everybody makes mistakes. 1219 01:34:22,940 --> 01:34:25,100 Everybody fails somewhere. 1220 01:34:26,660 --> 01:34:28,500 Everybody has their own dark place. 1221 01:34:37,200 --> 01:34:43,980 It's just that... It's just that by going the way he 1222 01:34:43,980 --> 01:34:48,320 did, your dad decided to come with me to mine. 1223 01:34:50,440 --> 01:34:51,660 And then to Dave's. 1224 01:34:54,140 --> 01:34:59,200 So I felt I had to move out of my own life and find a... 1225 01:34:59,200 --> 01:35:05,900 find a real, physical place where... 1226 01:35:06,320 --> 01:35:07,320 Where I could be. 1227 01:35:09,720 --> 01:35:10,940 Where you could be with him? 1228 01:35:12,080 --> 01:35:13,140 Yeah, if you like. 1229 01:35:14,840 --> 01:35:15,840 George. 1230 01:35:17,280 --> 01:35:20,520 If Dad could hear you now, he'd be howling with laughter. 1231 01:35:23,600 --> 01:35:24,600 Yes. 1232 01:35:28,260 --> 01:35:30,780 It suggests he hasn't lost his sense of humour. 1233 01:35:47,040 --> 01:35:49,120 Inconceivable that there shouldn't be a mouth out there. 1234 01:35:50,840 --> 01:35:51,840 Wouldn't there? 1235 01:35:54,080 --> 01:36:00,980 I don't know, 20, 30 years ago, it was maybe conceivable, but not 1236 01:36:00,980 --> 01:36:02,020 really so conceivable. 1237 01:36:05,260 --> 01:36:07,960 300 years ago, it was inconceivable that there should be. 1238 01:36:11,360 --> 01:36:12,360 Usher. 1239 01:36:16,590 --> 01:36:17,690 What are you afraid of, George? 1240 01:36:20,790 --> 01:36:22,210 You can tell me, I'm safe. 1241 01:36:32,690 --> 01:36:36,130 I'm afraid of meaninglessness. 1242 01:36:41,230 --> 01:36:42,590 I don't know what I'm feeling. 1243 01:36:50,480 --> 01:36:52,560 Maybe I too am afraid of happiness. 1244 01:36:56,980 --> 01:36:58,880 Or maybe standing still. 1245 01:37:00,860 --> 01:37:03,060 I know I'm afraid of standing still. 1246 01:37:03,680 --> 01:37:06,980 So you move to the middle of nowhere and do nothing for 10 years? 1247 01:37:07,860 --> 01:37:08,860 Makes sense. 1248 01:37:09,180 --> 01:37:10,180 In a way, it does. 1249 01:37:11,740 --> 01:37:16,500 Because out here, you realise that nothing stands still. 1250 01:37:18,080 --> 01:37:19,520 Everything is nonsense. 1251 01:37:26,980 --> 01:37:29,880 Please confirm too. 1252 01:37:44,900 --> 01:37:46,240 That's nice. 1253 01:37:50,540 --> 01:37:55,560 Why do you need a reason? 1254 01:37:58,660 --> 01:37:59,840 Why do you have a reason? 1255 01:38:43,400 --> 01:38:44,460 Do you ever eat, George? 1256 01:38:45,220 --> 01:38:46,220 I have to. 1257 01:38:47,300 --> 01:38:49,100 What do you eat, apart from goodness life? 1258 01:38:49,680 --> 01:38:50,680 Why, are you hungry? 1259 01:38:51,520 --> 01:38:52,520 Not sure. 1260 01:38:54,560 --> 01:38:56,360 Should be easy enough to know, shouldn't it? 1261 01:38:58,840 --> 01:38:59,840 What? 1262 01:38:59,980 --> 01:39:01,660 Whether you're hungry or satiated. 1263 01:39:02,460 --> 01:39:03,860 Asleep or just tired. 1264 01:39:05,120 --> 01:39:06,980 Whether you're meant to be somewhere or not. 1265 01:39:07,940 --> 01:39:09,300 What do you want me to say to that? 1266 01:39:11,720 --> 01:39:12,780 Do you want to go for a hike? 1267 01:39:14,660 --> 01:39:15,660 Now? 1268 01:39:15,940 --> 01:39:16,940 After breakfast. 1269 01:39:22,080 --> 01:39:24,100 I want you to come back to Cornwall with me. 1270 01:39:27,040 --> 01:39:28,280 I don't care what you do afterwards. 1271 01:39:29,300 --> 01:39:30,660 You can go on all the hikes you want. 1272 01:39:31,640 --> 01:39:33,020 I'll even join you on one. Why not? 1273 01:39:34,180 --> 01:39:36,760 But now I want you to come back to Cornwall with me. 1274 01:39:37,100 --> 01:39:38,260 Now? Yes. 1275 01:39:39,540 --> 01:39:40,540 Why now? 1276 01:39:41,360 --> 01:39:45,620 Because by the time we're down from the mountain and at an airport, we can catch 1277 01:39:45,620 --> 01:39:46,620 an early evening plane. 1278 01:39:46,920 --> 01:39:50,340 We'll stay the night at my flat, then we'll take a train to Cornwall, which 1279 01:39:50,340 --> 01:39:53,460 means we'll be there by mid -afternoon, and I don't need to tell you what 1280 01:39:53,460 --> 01:39:54,460 happens tomorrow. 1281 01:39:55,220 --> 01:39:56,220 I'm afraid you do. 1282 01:39:58,720 --> 01:39:59,720 Really? 1283 01:40:01,500 --> 01:40:03,100 Even if you've got a memory like an elephant? 1284 01:40:03,800 --> 01:40:05,320 She thinks I have memories. 1285 01:40:05,580 --> 01:40:07,380 Of course you do. You've got nothing else to do. 1286 01:40:08,100 --> 01:40:10,160 I have to think. Well, you're coming with me. 1287 01:40:16,010 --> 01:40:17,310 What is it? Ten minutes? 1288 01:40:17,710 --> 01:40:18,710 Yes. 1289 01:40:19,530 --> 01:40:20,489 To the day? 1290 01:40:20,490 --> 01:40:21,490 Yes. 1291 01:40:23,690 --> 01:40:25,210 What do you want me to do, Theo? 1292 01:40:25,450 --> 01:40:27,150 I want you to fucking well pay your respect. 1293 01:40:29,250 --> 01:40:32,250 And then I don't care what you do. 1294 01:40:32,710 --> 01:40:35,210 Then you can go on and not get on with your life. 1295 01:40:37,270 --> 01:40:39,770 I'm still angry. I don't honestly give a fuck. 1296 01:40:41,050 --> 01:40:44,450 I've typed up your story for you. It's a good story. I don't know what your 1297 01:40:44,450 --> 01:40:45,450 problem is. 1298 01:40:45,470 --> 01:40:48,250 So the very least you can do is hand it into your agent, and then you can come 1299 01:40:48,250 --> 01:40:50,270 back here and pity yourself for another ten years. 1300 01:40:54,650 --> 01:40:56,850 Why did you find the ribbon for the typewriter? 1301 01:40:58,010 --> 01:40:59,910 I carry it with me. You do? 1302 01:41:00,470 --> 01:41:02,890 George, you had some. 1303 01:41:04,190 --> 01:41:05,610 I had some? Yes. 1304 01:41:06,890 --> 01:41:10,210 You only needed to rummage through some of your stuff, and you'd have found it 1305 01:41:10,210 --> 01:41:11,210 yourself. 1306 01:41:12,970 --> 01:41:13,970 Good day. 1307 01:41:34,400 --> 01:41:37,540 The eye didn't want to upset anyone. Doesn't wash, does it? 1308 01:41:40,500 --> 01:41:42,600 You just weren't brave enough to say goodbye. 1309 01:43:48,750 --> 01:43:49,750 What are you doing? 1310 01:44:02,830 --> 01:44:04,530 It's just a script someone sent me. 1311 01:44:05,350 --> 01:44:06,350 What for? 1312 01:44:08,170 --> 01:44:09,170 To act it. 1313 01:44:11,450 --> 01:44:13,970 Hmm. You're an actor now, are you? 1314 01:44:15,290 --> 01:44:17,570 Maybe. Maybe even turn it down. 1315 01:44:18,240 --> 01:44:23,160 Why? Well, I was thinking of writing one myself. 1316 01:44:23,800 --> 01:44:24,800 Oh? 1317 01:44:25,400 --> 01:44:26,720 On to writing. 1318 01:44:27,040 --> 01:44:28,040 Good. 1319 01:44:34,340 --> 01:44:37,000 You ever thought of being a barman? 1320 01:44:40,220 --> 01:44:41,220 Okay. 1321 01:44:53,420 --> 01:44:55,200 And you see clearly now, the rain has gone. 1322 01:44:59,100 --> 01:45:00,100 It's Ivor. 1323 01:45:01,160 --> 01:45:02,160 Hello, Ivor. 1324 01:45:02,820 --> 01:45:05,060 You don't have the memory of an elephant at all, do you? 1325 01:45:05,600 --> 01:45:07,120 You've got the memory of a goldfish. 1326 01:45:10,660 --> 01:45:12,060 I drove you to Papara. 1327 01:45:12,880 --> 01:45:14,500 I... I don't know. 1328 01:45:15,120 --> 01:45:16,540 You're completely out of control. 1329 01:45:17,540 --> 01:45:19,340 You're the one that held contact here. 1330 01:45:20,340 --> 01:45:21,340 What are you up to? 1331 01:45:22,000 --> 01:45:23,120 Oh. Oh. 1332 01:45:23,780 --> 01:45:26,640 It seems I'm reconnecting with London. 1333 01:45:27,680 --> 01:45:30,780 The man who's connecting with London is connecting with life. 1334 01:45:32,840 --> 01:45:34,820 What are you doing here? 1335 01:45:35,300 --> 01:45:37,720 I work on the corner. The BFI. 1336 01:45:38,440 --> 01:45:39,440 In the library. 1337 01:45:40,480 --> 01:45:42,200 Oh, and this is your daylight break. 1338 01:45:43,640 --> 01:45:44,640 It's my break. 1339 01:45:46,300 --> 01:45:48,100 It's a good place to have a break. 1340 01:45:48,900 --> 01:45:49,900 It is. 1341 01:45:50,910 --> 01:45:53,230 Well, I've decided to take the rest of the afternoon off. 1342 01:45:54,090 --> 01:45:55,090 Actually, why? 1343 01:45:55,830 --> 01:45:59,290 Well, I thought this is a good coincidence. 1344 01:46:00,390 --> 01:46:03,410 And I thought you might not mind if I join you whilst we connect, please. 1345 01:47:53,420 --> 01:47:59,240 You can float down a river or swim the other way. 1346 01:48:00,980 --> 01:48:06,240 People that leave are never as important as the ones that stay. 1347 01:48:07,460 --> 01:48:13,920 And if you keep on fighting the current to reach the source, 1348 01:48:14,180 --> 01:48:20,520 you shall never falter or be diverted from your course. 1349 01:48:40,840 --> 01:48:46,620 Don't you think you'll get tired of moving on so fast? 1350 01:48:47,560 --> 01:48:53,100 How easy is it to remember when you've forgotten about the past? 1351 01:48:54,340 --> 01:49:00,680 And I've been disappointed by a chosen few. 1352 01:49:01,600 --> 01:49:07,380 When you come this far, how can you be prepared to lose? 1353 01:50:16,620 --> 01:50:22,320 I guess people are all different by who we strive to be. 1354 01:50:23,200 --> 01:50:28,920 And some know right away what they choose to believe. 1355 01:50:30,280 --> 01:50:36,320 And so we'll keep on traveling some roads of no end. 1356 01:50:37,460 --> 01:50:43,120 And your life is not something on which we can depend. 1357 01:50:56,240 --> 01:51:02,520 You turn around and tell me I took too much time Move 1358 01:51:02,520 --> 01:51:08,260 on, draw a line All will be revealed in time 1359 01:51:08,260 --> 01:51:11,200 You turn around